Head vabariigi väljakuulutamise päeva ka
Fotomeenutus aastast 20008, Wyattiga :) Endla rõdu monument
veebruar 23, 2010
Vabariigi kuulutamise aasta päeva puhul!
Head vabariigi väljakuulutamise päeva ka
Fotomeenutus aastast 20008, Wyattiga :) Endla rõdu monument
veebruar 19, 2010
Crooked judges of Amsterdam
IMO Islam like meny petrified systems has reached nowadays as whole entity and (not perhaps some good parts of it or sincere people who believe in goodness of it), bancruptcy. its like Body of zombie, living but not really on own will. Wilders and Pat Condells word might sound heartless, but sorry, i think there is truth in them.
Study Van Gogh murder case with Heart and mind, and ask yourself, with heart and mind, would you have killed Theo van Gogh, just because he didnt like your set beliefs or help direct movie of ex-Muslim Somali backgound woman Dutch MoP Hirsi who draw attention to the serious family violence issue and situation of women in Islamic families( ok not all of them, but problem is there)? would you have killed him just because he is spicy in mouth and chooses not to have religion as his cup of tea? Would you kill your own brother just because he had soometimes said bad things unto you or doesnt agree with you fully? You get the point, and Im sorry, but Theo van Gogh was a mirror, you might think he was crooked one, and not very tactful always, but he was Mirror and what you saw was Reflection. Islam clearly has problem, radicals do what they want and rest cant, wont or dont do much about it. Yeah West has wronged Islamic world, but not all the time, go thru alll history and ask yourself is everything that Muslims or people who call themseve so, really done in "revenge Mode"? as far as i know it takes two to Tango ;) I think noo one is really guiltless or spotless, when it comes to any fight that has occured in history, all who get involved no matter how shiny armour was in beginning will eventually be muddy or bloody...Peace
Hate is waste of space and space of waste:)
Angeeeeelu
Vaata ja näed raskemgi tee
kergem sul näib, kui tagasi toob see
vaata ja näed muutub veel kõik
saabub kord päev, jääda nii võib
:)
Taaskohtumiseni kulla :)
King's State of Mind
Today's fortune: Choose to experience peace rather than conflict[8)]
Used to sit and worry about the future
Worrying about the future don't change the past
Used to think that tomorrow would be better
But now I know that I'm doing the best I can
I'm just a man... trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb, cause it's all a state of mind
Wake up in the morning and I turn the pages
Don't understand what's going down
Everybody's acting so outrageous
It's gonna take a lot of love to turn things around
I'm just a man trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb cause it's all a state of mind
Hear people talk about going to heaven
Grab a little bit of heaven right here on earth
Troubled times lead to healing times
I was sad now I'm feeling fine
It's the taking and the giving that makes this life worth living,
Makes this life worth living
I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and fly,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
Ride the winds and climb,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
Used to sit and worry about the future
Worrying about the future don't change the past
Used to think that tomorrow would be better
But now I know that I'm doing the best I can
I'm just a man... trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb, cause it's all a state of mind
Wake up in the morning and I turn the pages
Don't understand what's going down
Everybody's acting so outrageous
It's gonna take a lot of love to turn things around
I'm just a man trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb cause it's all a state of mind
Hear people talk about going to heaven
Grab a little bit of heaven right here on earth
Troubled times lead to healing times
I was sad now I'm feeling fine
It's the taking and the giving that makes this life worth living,
Makes this life worth living
I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and fly,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
Ride the winds and climb,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
veebruar 18, 2010
what to tell our daughters-thought?
Lugege seda:
http://www.newsrealblog.com/2010/02/16/what-to-tell-our-daughters/What my daughter needs to know is that the emotional disaster that follows the severing of a sexual and spiritual union is a very big deal — and I do not want her to experience it. I want her to know that a happy marriage is absolutely attainable, that all it really takes – aside from making a good choice of partner (...which is no small thing) — is the right attitude.Which means, my dear, when you do marry, assume it will be for life. Though divorce is lawful (as it must be), pretend it is not. Second, do not marry someone just because you love them. It is not enough. There’s much more to a marriage than feeling starry-eyed about a person. Trust me: You will not feel starry-eyed forever. As a man once said who had been married to his wife for 50 years,“It’s funny: all that falling in love business. I hear myself tell the story and it all sounds so superficial. And it is, when you compare it to what we ended up with.” And last but not least, do not put yourself at the center of your life..."
http://www.newsrealblog.com/2010/02/16/what-to-tell-our-daughters/What my daughter needs to know is that the emotional disaster that follows the severing of a sexual and spiritual union is a very big deal — and I do not want her to experience it. I want her to know that a happy marriage is absolutely attainable, that all it really takes – aside from making a good choice of partner (...which is no small thing) — is the right attitude.Which means, my dear, when you do marry, assume it will be for life. Though divorce is lawful (as it must be), pretend it is not. Second, do not marry someone just because you love them. It is not enough. There’s much more to a marriage than feeling starry-eyed about a person. Trust me: You will not feel starry-eyed forever. As a man once said who had been married to his wife for 50 years,“It’s funny: all that falling in love business. I hear myself tell the story and it all sounds so superficial. And it is, when you compare it to what we ended up with.” And last but not least, do not put yourself at the center of your life..."
Sunshine and learning
does that means to you that what i guess? or is it just a song from the film you like?
Varane õis·ja Anna Haava luule ja olukorrast kuningriigis
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem,
ehid ennast vara ju?
Külm su võidab, õnnetu!
"Olen unes imet näin'd,
iluilmas ise käin'd..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem!
"Ei või enam leinata, õnnetundmust varjata..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem! ...(Anna Haava)
Kas ma unistan liiiga palju? Kas ma mõistatatan, et kas mõne su lauluvaliku, blogi jupi tga võib olla kodeeritud sõnum, signaaal et....kas ma olen ennast juba piisavalt reetnud, küsimused, millele vastusseid ma mõistatatan aga kui kohtun on totaalselt meelest või ei jõua küsida.
Kas mu unenägu http://khalblogstan.blogspot.com/2009/10/wierd-dreams.html
"I started to interperet own earlier dream, using bit astrology hehe. im suspecting that russian estonian speaking girl who hugged me on street and had hypnotic eyes could be Scorpio, at least thats one book claims that scorpio women has hypnotic looks. but maybe its just a dream hehe. some things in astrology abt people seem to be true. anyways there is one scorpio in horizon, but its too early to say that anything will happen..." jääb unenäoks, kuigi too oli hea tundeline, või ma tõlgendan seda oma soovide kohaselt?Kui sa seda juhtud lugema, siis tea et ei möödu päevagi kui ma su peale ei mõtleks, aga ma ei tea kas see oon meant to be? Minu sümpaatia ja enam paistab olema ikka päris :) ja ma ei tunne ennast halvasti, pgem on asi positiivse laenguga :)
Veel Anna Haava luulet:
Meid saatnud on vaikusehelin
ja tähtesäravad ööd,
kuukumased lumised metsad
ja vaiksed kaugeleteed:
me oleme põhjamaa lapsed,
kaks-me mõlemad.
Jääb lumekargelt põue meil südame sügavam õnn-
ja südame sügavam valu, nad ainult aimata on.../Anna Haava
Anna Haava luule langeb täitsa õigesse mulda eriti see:
Ei saa mitte vaiki olla...natuke julge küll..
ehid ennast vara ju?
Külm su võidab, õnnetu!
"Olen unes imet näin'd,
iluilmas ise käin'd..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem!
"Ei või enam leinata, õnnetundmust varjata..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem! ...(Anna Haava)
Kas ma unistan liiiga palju? Kas ma mõistatatan, et kas mõne su lauluvaliku, blogi jupi tga võib olla kodeeritud sõnum, signaaal et....kas ma olen ennast juba piisavalt reetnud, küsimused, millele vastusseid ma mõistatatan aga kui kohtun on totaalselt meelest või ei jõua küsida.
Kas mu unenägu http://khalblogstan.blogspot.com/2009/10/wierd-dreams.html
"I started to interperet own earlier dream, using bit astrology hehe. im suspecting that russian estonian speaking girl who hugged me on street and had hypnotic eyes could be Scorpio, at least thats one book claims that scorpio women has hypnotic looks. but maybe its just a dream hehe. some things in astrology abt people seem to be true. anyways there is one scorpio in horizon, but its too early to say that anything will happen..." jääb unenäoks, kuigi too oli hea tundeline, või ma tõlgendan seda oma soovide kohaselt?Kui sa seda juhtud lugema, siis tea et ei möödu päevagi kui ma su peale ei mõtleks, aga ma ei tea kas see oon meant to be? Minu sümpaatia ja enam paistab olema ikka päris :) ja ma ei tunne ennast halvasti, pgem on asi positiivse laenguga :)
Veel Anna Haava luulet:
Meid saatnud on vaikusehelin
ja tähtesäravad ööd,
kuukumased lumised metsad
ja vaiksed kaugeleteed:
me oleme põhjamaa lapsed,
kaks-me mõlemad.
Jääb lumekargelt põue meil südame sügavam õnn-
ja südame sügavam valu, nad ainult aimata on.../Anna Haava
Anna Haava luule langeb täitsa õigesse mulda eriti see:
Ei saa mitte vaiki olla...natuke julge küll..
veebruar 04, 2010
Angeeeelikaaaa
i had early rise, and im about to go sleep
but I m happy, tired so much
visted several docs cauze of Angeelika and Kadri, yep their visting
Lots of snow, and roads in Pärnu
that ARE SO iMPOSSIBLE, THAT YOU NEED PUSH baby cart through,
its like so krossikas.
more some other timee
zleeeep Khaled zleeeep :)
but I m happy, tired so much
visted several docs cauze of Angeelika and Kadri, yep their visting
Lots of snow, and roads in Pärnu
that ARE SO iMPOSSIBLE, THAT YOU NEED PUSH baby cart through,
its like so krossikas.
more some other timee
zleeeep Khaled zleeeep :)
veebruar 03, 2010
Chidrens names
I just learned today, that my bosses new child who was born recently name is Katariina Anna Maria :D, and his son's name is Karl Gustav Artur :)
Also my Chinese friend has daugter of my Angeelika's age, and her name is Aimei :)
all bit unusual names :)
Also my Chinese friend has daugter of my Angeelika's age, and her name is Aimei :)
all bit unusual names :)
Looks like my stats has gone up
4 hits today an one copy of not my poem
Places from Santiago Chile, Ottawa, Canada, Karachi Pakistan. i wonder who?
Strasbourg France, Nacka Sweden and 4 estonian towns are now mapped, Pärnu thats probaly me, Tamsalu, Viljandi( Ivar?) and 4 times from Tallinn, so i get some traffic huh neat.
Yesterday i went to bed and ignored tv and computer :)
i neeeded rest other wise i would have been a zombie at work
still i need to change some stuff in myself for the better and for myself as it may affect other people. I feel happy actually, at peace,i focus on appreciating thing inside of me. We'll find out what will become of :)
Im hopeful yet gotta remind myself that its easy to misinerpret sometimes. Could you be the...? ...ne Mozhet ne odin , ńe odin korol :)
come what may
Path to Eternal?
Places from Santiago Chile, Ottawa, Canada, Karachi Pakistan. i wonder who?
Strasbourg France, Nacka Sweden and 4 estonian towns are now mapped, Pärnu thats probaly me, Tamsalu, Viljandi( Ivar?) and 4 times from Tallinn, so i get some traffic huh neat.
Yesterday i went to bed and ignored tv and computer :)
i neeeded rest other wise i would have been a zombie at work
still i need to change some stuff in myself for the better and for myself as it may affect other people. I feel happy actually, at peace,i focus on appreciating thing inside of me. We'll find out what will become of :)
Im hopeful yet gotta remind myself that its easy to misinerpret sometimes. Could you be the...? ...ne Mozhet ne odin , ńe odin korol :)
come what may
Path to Eternal?
veebruar 01, 2010
Insanity
Definition of Insanity is doing one thing over and over again and expecting different result hehe and If this doesnt why dont you try something different :)
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
On the Gay Cure theme
Definition of Insanity is doing one thing over and over again and expecting different result hehe and If this doesnt why dont you try something different :)
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
Rise and Shine :D :P ;)
Hommikust kõik see kes juhtub seda lugema,
noh loota juu võib..:)
Mul õnnestus taas unest und näha, minu kavatsus magama minna jäi kavatsuseks
ja kell saamas vaikselt kuus ja mul on vaja täna olla asjalik ;)
st Teen oma töö ära, lugematute hulkade pausidega, et puhata ;) st leian koha kus lühiajalselt tukkuda.
Ja mul õnnestus need 3 päeva peaaegu mitte midagi teha. produktiivselt mitte midagi
Reede ja Laupäeva istusin ma totaalselt kodus, "tegelesin" arvuti ja Feisbookiga. i aint vetsus ja söömas käidud ja telekat vaadatud
positiivne on see, et sai sugulastega räägitud, Liibanonist ja vennaga ka. Ja Gordoniga, lisasin posu tuttavaid endale msni. One Armed Bobiga ka :) nagu täna peale keskööd, sain lõpuks osa endast selgitatud, mille üle on mul hea meel ei jää kripeldama hinge peale, et ei jälle ei leidnud võimalust või julgust omi mõtteid avaldada. :) Laupäeva õhtu vastu pühapäeva ma siiski magasin, ja laupäeavl ma msnis polnud.
Ma sain uusi asju teada ka nt Reet on metalit kuulanud põhimusana ja Ma avastasin Tänu Harrile KAKS uut BÄNDI, Denun- Tshiili METALbänd mille lauljaks on naine ja ma kuulasin seda mitu korda järjest. Kui ma Harrile seda ütlesin, siis ta ütles et mulle meeldib siis ka Nightwish, ja tõesti kui ma kuulasin neid, siis jaa :)
Ok, ja siis tegin video kuidas linnud kibuvitsapõõsas söömas käivad
ja Kuidas Rott seemne ja pekiraksus käis :D Uskumatu aga ta ronis linnutoidumajani
Terve õhtu treisin seda :)
Nautige
noh loota juu võib..:)
Mul õnnestus taas unest und näha, minu kavatsus magama minna jäi kavatsuseks
ja kell saamas vaikselt kuus ja mul on vaja täna olla asjalik ;)
st Teen oma töö ära, lugematute hulkade pausidega, et puhata ;) st leian koha kus lühiajalselt tukkuda.
Ja mul õnnestus need 3 päeva peaaegu mitte midagi teha. produktiivselt mitte midagi
Reede ja Laupäeva istusin ma totaalselt kodus, "tegelesin" arvuti ja Feisbookiga. i aint vetsus ja söömas käidud ja telekat vaadatud
positiivne on see, et sai sugulastega räägitud, Liibanonist ja vennaga ka. Ja Gordoniga, lisasin posu tuttavaid endale msni. One Armed Bobiga ka :) nagu täna peale keskööd, sain lõpuks osa endast selgitatud, mille üle on mul hea meel ei jää kripeldama hinge peale, et ei jälle ei leidnud võimalust või julgust omi mõtteid avaldada. :) Laupäeva õhtu vastu pühapäeva ma siiski magasin, ja laupäeavl ma msnis polnud.
Ma sain uusi asju teada ka nt Reet on metalit kuulanud põhimusana ja Ma avastasin Tänu Harrile KAKS uut BÄNDI, Denun- Tshiili METALbänd mille lauljaks on naine ja ma kuulasin seda mitu korda järjest. Kui ma Harrile seda ütlesin, siis ta ütles et mulle meeldib siis ka Nightwish, ja tõesti kui ma kuulasin neid, siis jaa :)
Ok, ja siis tegin video kuidas linnud kibuvitsapõõsas söömas käivad
ja Kuidas Rott seemne ja pekiraksus käis :D Uskumatu aga ta ronis linnutoidumajani
Terve õhtu treisin seda :)
Nautige
jaanuar 26, 2010
Välisilm esitleb: Nafta pettuse vastu (Pain, petrole et corruption, Prantsuse 2008)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oil-for-Food_Programme
Kui ÜRO algatas 1996. aastal embargo tõttu kannatanud Iraagi rahva abistamiseks programmi Nafta toidu vastu, näis olevat kõik hästi. Ent kui üks Iraagi ajaleht avaldas 2004. aasta jaanuaris 270 kõrge ametniku ja firma nime, kes Saddam Husseini heldetest kingitustest ohtralt kasu lõikasid, puhkes kõigi aegade suurim skandaal - skandaal, mis kiiresti unustati. Nüüd püüab filmi autor Denis Poncet selle hämmastava korruptsiooniskeemi killud uuesti kokku seada ja süüdlased üles leida.
Watched doc about Oil for Food...i wish i could say unWTFbelivable, but i rather say What else is new ;) UN Security Council SUCKS big TIME with Saddam Gang AND other story "heroes" too! my condolelences to rest of the common man. Sad, but we deserve our rulers;)
Kui ÜRO algatas 1996. aastal embargo tõttu kannatanud Iraagi rahva abistamiseks programmi Nafta toidu vastu, näis olevat kõik hästi. Ent kui üks Iraagi ajaleht avaldas 2004. aasta jaanuaris 270 kõrge ametniku ja firma nime, kes Saddam Husseini heldetest kingitustest ohtralt kasu lõikasid, puhkes kõigi aegade suurim skandaal - skandaal, mis kiiresti unustati. Nüüd püüab filmi autor Denis Poncet selle hämmastava korruptsiooniskeemi killud uuesti kokku seada ja süüdlased üles leida.
Watched doc about Oil for Food...i wish i could say unWTFbelivable, but i rather say What else is new ;) UN Security Council SUCKS big TIME with Saddam Gang AND other story "heroes" too! my condolelences to rest of the common man. Sad, but we deserve our rulers;)
Michael Jackson and Freddie Mercury singin together
2 Kings singin together
check out comparisons at:
http://www.nicholasjdanton.supanet.com/comparisons.htm
Song Victory
http://www.ultimatequeen.co.uk/Songs/collabfreddie.htm#victory
More to life than this-song
http://www.ultimatequeen.co.uk/Songs/collabfreddie.htm#there
1st version
2nd version More Jackson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_e8t5B2H1c&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh+div-1r-6-HM
3d Version on Mr.Bad Guy by Freddie
State of Shock song :)
http://www.ultimatequeen.co.uk/Songs/collabfreddie.htm#state
check out comparisons at:
http://www.nicholasjdanton.supanet.com/comparisons.htm
Song Victory
http://www.ultimatequeen.co.uk/Songs/collabfreddie.htm#victory
More to life than this-song
http://www.ultimatequeen.co.uk/Songs/collabfreddie.htm#there
1st version
2nd version More Jackson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_e8t5B2H1c&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh+div-1r-6-HM
3d Version on Mr.Bad Guy by Freddie
State of Shock song :)
http://www.ultimatequeen.co.uk/Songs/collabfreddie.htm#state
RIP :(
jaanuar 19, 2010
7
7 aastat Tallinnas 1996-2003
7 aastat Pärnus 2003-2010
ja 7 aaasat 2010-2017 TALLINN?
7 aastat Tiibetis FILM
7 on 3 plus 4
3 ehk trinity ja 4 ilmakaart, aastaaega, elementi
7 surmapattu
2010 SEPt saan 34 :) kokku 7
imelik juhtum
18.01.2010 20:53:53 karl head heiki tead mul oli imelik juhtum
18.01.2010 20:54:07 heiki karl head no jah
18.01.2010 20:54:20 heiki karl head mis juhtum
18.01.2010 20:54:31 karl head heiki olin akadeemia tnl, jõudmas postkontori juurde
18.01.2010 20:54:43 karl head heiki tulin keskuse poolt
18.01.2010 20:54:57 karl head heiki teatri vastaspoolel
18.01.2010 20:55:10 karl head heiki ja ma tegin tänavast pilti
18.01.2010 20:55:25 karl head heiki ja postika peatuses
18.01.2010 20:55:39 karl head heiki oli mingi kamp poisse voi noori
18.01.2010 20:56:00 karl head heiki ma täpselt ei näinud mis seal toimus
18.01.2010 20:56:05 heiki karl head ja edasi mis nad tegid
18.01.2010 20:56:24 karl head heiki tegin pildi ära kaugelt, nemad küll peale ei jäänud
18.01.2010 20:56:50 karl head heiki ma bussi peatuse poole ei läinud pöörasin rüütlisse
18.01.2010 20:57:09 karl head heiki ja kolm tüüpi hakkasid järgi jooksma
18.01.2010 20:57:33 karl head heiki kysisid et kas ma nendest pilti eei teinud
18.01.2010 20:57:37 karl head heiki ?
18.01.2010 20:57:53 karl head heiki et äkki olen politsei
18.01.2010 20:57:57 karl head heiki imelik
18.01.2010 20:58:05 heiki karl head no äkki olid need varaste kamp
18.01.2010 20:58:13 karl head heiki ma
18.01.2010 20:58:17 karl head heiki ei tea
18.01.2010 20:58:21 heiki karl head ega nad kaamerat ära ei tõmmanud
18.01.2010 20:58:23 karl head heiki ei
18.01.2010 20:58:35 heiki karl head või sul kallale ei tulnud
18.01.2010 20:58:35 karl head heiki ma ütlesin et ei teinud
18.01.2010 20:58:38 karl head heiki ei
18.01.2010 20:58:53 karl head heiki vaata veebikat ;)
jaanuar 12, 2010
Ma Tean Et Ma Midagi Ei Tea lyrics
Ma Tean Et Ma Midagi Ei Tea lyrics
Id Rev
läksime ükskord kuhugi
ise ka ei saanud täpselt aru
kas me jõudsime kuhugi
kas sel oli üldse mingi vahe
sest me läksime ju kuhugi
ja natukese aja pärast
tulime me lihtsalt tagasi
mis meil muud oligi siis teha
kuid nüüd ma tean et ma midagi ei tea
ongi teha ainult veel üks samm
astuda ainult veel üks mõte
astuda korraks tagasi
et siis pärast mõelda edasi
mõte oli justkui nagu kumm
ta venis üsna mitu aega
ja kui ta aeg sai lõpuks täis
siis kõik kohad tähendust said täis
ja nüüd ma tean et ma midagi ei tea
(kui pole algust siis ei saa olla ka lõppu)
Id Rev
läksime ükskord kuhugi
ise ka ei saanud täpselt aru
kas me jõudsime kuhugi
kas sel oli üldse mingi vahe
sest me läksime ju kuhugi
ja natukese aja pärast
tulime me lihtsalt tagasi
mis meil muud oligi siis teha
kuid nüüd ma tean et ma midagi ei tea
ongi teha ainult veel üks samm
astuda ainult veel üks mõte
astuda korraks tagasi
et siis pärast mõelda edasi
mõte oli justkui nagu kumm
ta venis üsna mitu aega
ja kui ta aeg sai lõpuks täis
siis kõik kohad tähendust said täis
ja nüüd ma tean et ma midagi ei tea
(kui pole algust siis ei saa olla ka lõppu)
Anna Mulle Oma Valu sõnad
Id Rev
1.
ma tahan näha su valguse varjutust
ma tahan näha su südant ja silmi
asjad mida ma kordagi ei karda
asju mida keegi minult ei saa mõsta
häbi mille ees ei ole lohutust
lohkuvajund elu tagant paistab hirmu
lohkuvajund elu tagant paistab kartust
ja ma kardan seda ja ma kardan teist
ja ma näen oma masenduse tohutust
ja ma näen su nägu ja su pilku
mille taga on üks suur armastus
ja ma näen oma elu see on koeraelu
jah sind ei saa ma karta
jah sina ei saa mind mõista
ma tahan näha su valguse varjutust
ma tahan näha su südant ja silmi
2.
valu mis me ümber on
ei ole kellegi oma
kuid iga päev ja iga hetk
kingib mulle oma ahastust
kuid igal päeval ja igal hetkel
ma tahan sult küsida
kas see on minu elu
kas see on elu
anna mulle oma valu
ma tahan ta külgesid haista
ja ma tahan ta külge end kaitsta
anna mulle oma valu
kas see on minu elu
kas see on elu
ja hingematvas vaikuses
ma tahan sulle öelda
KA MINU EMA OLI KUNAGI INIMENE
anna mulle palun anna mulle
oma valu anna mulle
oma valu palun palun anna mulle
oma valu
1.
ma tahan näha su valguse varjutust
ma tahan näha su südant ja silmi
asjad mida ma kordagi ei karda
asju mida keegi minult ei saa mõsta
häbi mille ees ei ole lohutust
lohkuvajund elu tagant paistab hirmu
lohkuvajund elu tagant paistab kartust
ja ma kardan seda ja ma kardan teist
ja ma näen oma masenduse tohutust
ja ma näen su nägu ja su pilku
mille taga on üks suur armastus
ja ma näen oma elu see on koeraelu
jah sind ei saa ma karta
jah sina ei saa mind mõista
ma tahan näha su valguse varjutust
ma tahan näha su südant ja silmi
2.
valu mis me ümber on
ei ole kellegi oma
kuid iga päev ja iga hetk
kingib mulle oma ahastust
kuid igal päeval ja igal hetkel
ma tahan sult küsida
kas see on minu elu
kas see on elu
anna mulle oma valu
ma tahan ta külgesid haista
ja ma tahan ta külge end kaitsta
anna mulle oma valu
kas see on minu elu
kas see on elu
ja hingematvas vaikuses
ma tahan sulle öelda
KA MINU EMA OLI KUNAGI INIMENE
anna mulle palun anna mulle
oma valu anna mulle
oma valu palun palun anna mulle
oma valu
Darks Blues
kirjutasin sele ükskord tööl, eemisel aastal :)
wrote this once at work, last year :)
My mood is as dark as coffee,
drinking sweetened slight bitterness
in dark blue mug im holding
in my hand this day...
Blue as blues in my mind
with sense of restlesness in my heart,
discontentment in my soul
Between longing and incompleted brokeness
lay questions to be known
and dilemmas to be settled.
day and night swaps
and everyday joys& chores
Good mates and conflicts
belonging and loneliness
.........................
I need Change!
wrote this once at work, last year :)
My mood is as dark as coffee,
drinking sweetened slight bitterness
in dark blue mug im holding
in my hand this day...
Blue as blues in my mind
with sense of restlesness in my heart,
discontentment in my soul
Between longing and incompleted brokeness
lay questions to be known
and dilemmas to be settled.
day and night swaps
and everyday joys& chores
Good mates and conflicts
belonging and loneliness
.........................
I need Change!
jaanuar 04, 2010
Happy new Year
Happy new year, everyone,
hah who i am kidding
Happy New year
Old man ;)
who reads this blog any way ;)
besides i already wished stuff on Facebook
hah who i am kidding
Happy New year
Old man ;)
who reads this blog any way ;)
besides i already wished stuff on Facebook
things people do ;)
Inventory of normality
in “The winner stands alone”, by Paulo Coelho
1] Anything that makes us forget our true identity and our dreams and makes us only work to produce and reproduce.
2] Making rules for a war (the Geneva Convention).
3] Spending years at university and then not being able to find a job.
4] Working from nine in the morning to five in the afternoon at something that does not give us the least pleasure, so that we can retire after 30 years.
5] Retiring only to discover that we have no more energy to enjoy life, and then dying of boredom after a few years.
6] Using Botox.
7] Trying to be financially successful instead of seeking happiness.
8] Ridiculing those who seek happiness instead of money by calling them “people with no ambition”.
9] Comparing objects like cars, houses and clothes, and defining life according to these comparisons instead of really trying to find out the true reason for being alive.
10] Not talking to strangers. Saying nasty things about our neighbors.
More http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2009/12/21/inventory-of-normality-2/ My comment: life or something people like to think it to be, its one thing to be practical and quite different to be obsessed this as only option. Who said that materialism isnt Religion? Not Just Marxism-Leninism-Stalinsim-Socialism-Communism and Capitalism, Think of cargo cult and modern day consumerism..if religious people are... wierd, we all are, cause we all have some kind religion or cult that we are fan of :)
in “The winner stands alone”, by Paulo Coelho
1] Anything that makes us forget our true identity and our dreams and makes us only work to produce and reproduce.
2] Making rules for a war (the Geneva Convention).
3] Spending years at university and then not being able to find a job.
4] Working from nine in the morning to five in the afternoon at something that does not give us the least pleasure, so that we can retire after 30 years.
5] Retiring only to discover that we have no more energy to enjoy life, and then dying of boredom after a few years.
6] Using Botox.
7] Trying to be financially successful instead of seeking happiness.
8] Ridiculing those who seek happiness instead of money by calling them “people with no ambition”.
9] Comparing objects like cars, houses and clothes, and defining life according to these comparisons instead of really trying to find out the true reason for being alive.
10] Not talking to strangers. Saying nasty things about our neighbors.
More http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2009/12/21/inventory-of-normality-2/ My comment: life or something people like to think it to be, its one thing to be practical and quite different to be obsessed this as only option. Who said that materialism isnt Religion? Not Just Marxism-Leninism-Stalinsim-Socialism-Communism and Capitalism, Think of cargo cult and modern day consumerism..if religious people are... wierd, we all are, cause we all have some kind religion or cult that we are fan of :)
Arabs and Jews
Something to think about :)
found it thanks to post on Borna's blog
Arabs and Jews
selected by Paulo Coelho
What will they say of you?
As a boy, Abin-Alsar overheard a conversation between his father and a dervish.
“Careful with your work”, said the dervish. “Think of what future generations will say about you.”
“So what?”, replied his father, “When I die, everything shall end, and it will not matter what they say.”
Abin-Alsar never forgot that conversation. His whole life, he made an effort to do good, to help people and go about his work with enthusiasm. He became well-known for his concern for others; when he died, he left behind a great number of things which improved the quality of life in his town.
On his tombstone, he had the following epitaph engraved:
“A life which ends with death, is a life not well spent.”
http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2009/12/15/arabs-and-jews/
found it thanks to post on Borna's blog
Arabs and Jews
selected by Paulo Coelho
What will they say of you?
As a boy, Abin-Alsar overheard a conversation between his father and a dervish.
“Careful with your work”, said the dervish. “Think of what future generations will say about you.”
“So what?”, replied his father, “When I die, everything shall end, and it will not matter what they say.”
Abin-Alsar never forgot that conversation. His whole life, he made an effort to do good, to help people and go about his work with enthusiasm. He became well-known for his concern for others; when he died, he left behind a great number of things which improved the quality of life in his town.
On his tombstone, he had the following epitaph engraved:
“A life which ends with death, is a life not well spent.”
http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2009/12/15/arabs-and-jews/
detsember 03, 2009
detsember 02, 2009
november 24, 2009
somebody to love by queen
Can Anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up, I die a little
Can't barely stand on my feet
(Take a look at yourself) I take a look in the mirror (In the mirror) and cry (And cry)
Lord what you're doing to me? (Yeah, yeah)
I have spent all my years in believing you (Ooh, believing you)
But I just can't get no relief, lord
Somebody, (Somebody), oh somebody (Somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
I work (He works hard) every day of my life
I work 'till I ache my bones
At the end (At the end of the day) I take home (Goes home) my hard earned pay all on my own
(Goes home on his own)
I get down (Down) on my knees (Knees) and I start to pray (Praise the lord)
'Till the tears run down from my eyes, lord (Ooh, lord)
Somebody (Somebody), ooh somebody (Please)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
(He works hard) Everyday (Everyday)
And I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
I got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe (He's got nobody left to believe)
(Ooh lord)
Oh Somebody, ooh (Somebody)
Anybody find me somebody to love?
(Anybody find me someone to love? )
Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (You just keep losing and losing)
I'm ok, I'm alright (He's alright, he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat (Yeah, yeah)
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, lord (One day I'm gonna be free, lord)
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love (Find me, find me, find me)
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
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Find me somebody to love (Somebody, somebody, somebody)
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody find me, somebody find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love? Somebody to love?
(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me somebody, somebody (find me somebody to love) somebody, somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me, find me, find me
Ooh- somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Anybody, anywhere, anybody find me somebody to love love love!
Find me, find me, find me love.
Each morning I get up, I die a little
Can't barely stand on my feet
(Take a look at yourself) I take a look in the mirror (In the mirror) and cry (And cry)
Lord what you're doing to me? (Yeah, yeah)
I have spent all my years in believing you (Ooh, believing you)
But I just can't get no relief, lord
Somebody, (Somebody), oh somebody (Somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
I work (He works hard) every day of my life
I work 'till I ache my bones
At the end (At the end of the day) I take home (Goes home) my hard earned pay all on my own
(Goes home on his own)
I get down (Down) on my knees (Knees) and I start to pray (Praise the lord)
'Till the tears run down from my eyes, lord (Ooh, lord)
Somebody (Somebody), ooh somebody (Please)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
(He works hard) Everyday (Everyday)
And I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
I got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe (He's got nobody left to believe)
(Ooh lord)
Oh Somebody, ooh (Somebody)
Anybody find me somebody to love?
(Anybody find me someone to love? )
Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (You just keep losing and losing)
I'm ok, I'm alright (He's alright, he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat (Yeah, yeah)
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, lord (One day I'm gonna be free, lord)
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love (Find me, find me, find me)
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love (Somebody, somebody, somebody)
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Find me somebody to love
Somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody, somebody find me, somebody find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love? Somebody to love?
(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me somebody, somebody (find me somebody to love) somebody, somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me, find me, find me
Ooh- somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
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(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Anybody, anywhere, anybody find me somebody to love love love!
Find me, find me, find me love.
november 17, 2009
Parable on fear
There was once a strong and inquisitive young man who loved to travel.
In his thirst for for knowledge he moved from place to place,
drinking in wisdom and recording everything that happened to him.
Eventually, he came to a beautiful village slumbering at the foot of a mountain
surrounded on all sides by green hills where gentle winds blew intermittenly,
delighting the mind and refreshing the heart. In this beautiful place, he was
schocked to see that the inhabitants of this village were sad. They moved sluggishly,
dragging their feet. To him they appeared no more than moving phantoms, without body or soul.
The sight of these phantoms terrified him. He became determined to discover what made them so
and set off to a fabled wise man who lived alone, in a hut, cut off from village and its inhabitants.
When he met the wise man, he asked what secret lay behind this great paradox. He asked why these
people lived in a state of subjugation and dejection in a village where everything would seem to
suggest that the people would be blessed with happiness and well-being. The sage came out of his hut
and pointed at bhe top of the mountain. "Look at that peak. An enormous ogre sits up there. From where it sits,
he raves and shrieks, filling peoples heart with fear by threatening to gobble the them up if they leave their
homes or do any kind of work at all. The people terrorized by his shrieks, can live only by stealth
Only their survival instinct keeps them going. They steal out like mice in secret to gather enough to keep body and
soul together. They live day by day, waiting impatiently for the moment of their death. Their fear of this ogre has
sapped their intellect and depleted their physical powers, reducing them to despair and hoplessness."
The young man thought for a while and said, "Im going to the top of the mountain. I will talk to this ogre and ask
why he wants to prevent from them leading their lives in peace and safety."
"Go up to the top of the mountain? No sane person would risk his life by daring to meet the ogre. I implore you
not to do it for the sake of your life, young man!" But the young man would not be dissuaded. He was determined to
do what he believed had to be done. And so, with slow but sure steps he started on his way to the peak.
When young man reached the peak. the ogre did, indeed seem large at first; however, what he found as he walked on
astonished him. The closer he got, the smaller the ogre became. By the time he arrived he found this great ogre who
terrorized many was smaller than his littlest finger. The young man flattened his hand, held out his palm and the
tiny ogre jumped onto it.
"Who are you?" the young man asked.
"I am Fear," the ogre replied
"Fear of what?" the young man asked
That depends on who you are. How each person sees me depends how he imagines me. Some people fear illness, and
they see me as disease. Others fear poverty, so they see me as poverty. Othes fear authority, so they see authority
in me. Some fear injustice, others wild beasts or storms, that's how i appear to them. He who fears the water
i appear as a torrent, he who fears war percieves in me an army, ammunition or suchlike."
"But why they do see you as bigger than you really are?"
"To each person i appear as big as is his fear. As long as they refuse to approach and confront me they will never know
my true size."
There was once a strong and inquisitive young man who loved to travel.
In his thirst for for knowledge he moved from place to place,
drinking in wisdom and recording everything that happened to him.
Eventually, he came to a beautiful village slumbering at the foot of a mountain
surrounded on all sides by green hills where gentle winds blew intermittenly,
delighting the mind and refreshing the heart. In this beautiful place, he was
schocked to see that the inhabitants of this village were sad. They moved sluggishly,
dragging their feet. To him they appeared no more than moving phantoms, without body or soul.
The sight of these phantoms terrified him. He became determined to discover what made them so
and set off to a fabled wise man who lived alone, in a hut, cut off from village and its inhabitants.
When he met the wise man, he asked what secret lay behind this great paradox. He asked why these
people lived in a state of subjugation and dejection in a village where everything would seem to
suggest that the people would be blessed with happiness and well-being. The sage came out of his hut
and pointed at bhe top of the mountain. "Look at that peak. An enormous ogre sits up there. From where it sits,
he raves and shrieks, filling peoples heart with fear by threatening to gobble the them up if they leave their
homes or do any kind of work at all. The people terrorized by his shrieks, can live only by stealth
Only their survival instinct keeps them going. They steal out like mice in secret to gather enough to keep body and
soul together. They live day by day, waiting impatiently for the moment of their death. Their fear of this ogre has
sapped their intellect and depleted their physical powers, reducing them to despair and hoplessness."
The young man thought for a while and said, "Im going to the top of the mountain. I will talk to this ogre and ask
why he wants to prevent from them leading their lives in peace and safety."
"Go up to the top of the mountain? No sane person would risk his life by daring to meet the ogre. I implore you
not to do it for the sake of your life, young man!" But the young man would not be dissuaded. He was determined to
do what he believed had to be done. And so, with slow but sure steps he started on his way to the peak.
When young man reached the peak. the ogre did, indeed seem large at first; however, what he found as he walked on
astonished him. The closer he got, the smaller the ogre became. By the time he arrived he found this great ogre who
terrorized many was smaller than his littlest finger. The young man flattened his hand, held out his palm and the
tiny ogre jumped onto it.
"Who are you?" the young man asked.
"I am Fear," the ogre replied
"Fear of what?" the young man asked
That depends on who you are. How each person sees me depends how he imagines me. Some people fear illness, and
they see me as disease. Others fear poverty, so they see me as poverty. Othes fear authority, so they see authority
in me. Some fear injustice, others wild beasts or storms, that's how i appear to them. He who fears the water
i appear as a torrent, he who fears war percieves in me an army, ammunition or suchlike."
"But why they do see you as bigger than you really are?"
"To each person i appear as big as is his fear. As long as they refuse to approach and confront me they will never know
my true size."
november 13, 2009
Kuu on õige päike-new record
Today i slept until 16.00 :D at day
im making progress, new record
today is i see... 3rd night i stay up until 5 something. so naturally isleep during day
baaaad thing that i have slept in....embarassing when it happens at workday, two days in a row.
bit more ok on rest day only thing, my biological clock is messed up then. so here i am
not daring go to sleep cauze at 7 i need to go to work :D
but im yaaaawning........zzzzzzleeeep in evening
i saw bahais todays, pärnu community is really small. but i dont mind smalll gatherings.
i prefer them actually. it was birthday of the Bahaullah today
im making progress, new record
today is i see... 3rd night i stay up until 5 something. so naturally isleep during day
baaaad thing that i have slept in....embarassing when it happens at workday, two days in a row.
bit more ok on rest day only thing, my biological clock is messed up then. so here i am
not daring go to sleep cauze at 7 i need to go to work :D
but im yaaaawning........zzzzzzleeeep in evening
i saw bahais todays, pärnu community is really small. but i dont mind smalll gatherings.
i prefer them actually. it was birthday of the Bahaullah today
november 11, 2009
Perfume (book) by Süskind
i went on book shopping spree, i also got myself Peter Süskind's Perfume, Story of a murderer.
I wasnt aware of that book, till i saw the title of it on Tiina's readed books list in Facebook. I like to know what books, especially good ones mu friends and aquintances have read. I have recently seen a film version of it, so that also got me wanting to know how book is written.
Book is thrilling though, for looong time, i got shivers on skin in warm room....and although i sounds like cliche that i say over and over, the books descriptivness beats movie anytime :)
but i guess its just me :)
looking foward of finishing book
I wasnt aware of that book, till i saw the title of it on Tiina's readed books list in Facebook. I like to know what books, especially good ones mu friends and aquintances have read. I have recently seen a film version of it, so that also got me wanting to know how book is written.
Book is thrilling though, for looong time, i got shivers on skin in warm room....and although i sounds like cliche that i say over and over, the books descriptivness beats movie anytime :)
but i guess its just me :)
looking foward of finishing book
more wierd dreams
let me see, ive seen two people i know, no make it 3.
then there was mall scene of escalators...remnant being using escalator last day?
where little boys where changing people 2 kroons for using escalator, but instead of using one to go down , they used one going up, and people were walking down that upcoming escalator
oh...I HAD VERY GAY DREAM part, i wonder what that means.
WAS afraid to tell that person, that i saw him in such dream. VERY BIZARRE
then there was mall scene of escalators...remnant being using escalator last day?
where little boys where changing people 2 kroons for using escalator, but instead of using one to go down , they used one going up, and people were walking down that upcoming escalator
oh...I HAD VERY GAY DREAM part, i wonder what that means.
WAS afraid to tell that person, that i saw him in such dream. VERY BIZARRE
november 05, 2009
paranoid mind
How to get to them?
they seem to be kinda religious toooo:)
a chosen ones, but they do point to things that
some are so true.
how far they have the truth though?
they seem to be kinda religious toooo:)
a chosen ones, but they do point to things that
some are so true.
how far they have the truth though?
oktoober 30, 2009
Latvian "metorite"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2BFGuAEo33M
"An elaborate publicity stunt by a Swedish mobile phone company involving a faked meteorite strike in a Latvian meadow has provided a new case study on how a marketing campaign can backfire.Tele2 on Tuesday promised to reimburse the Baltic nation for the cost of sending military units and scientists to investigate a 10 metre-wide crater that appeared near the Estonian border after locals reported seeing a streak of light cross the sky on Sunday.The Stockholm-based company admitted it had dug the hole and burned chemicals at its base to create the impression of a smouldering meteorite crater.News of the apparent strike attracted worldwide media attention on Monday as Latvian security forces cordoned off the area to conduct radiation tests.A spokesman for Tele2's Latvian unit said the stunt had been intended to distract attention from the country's economic crisis and give people something "creative and exciting" to talk about.But the Latvian government, battling against the deepest recession in the European Union, was not amused and said it would cut its contract with the company in protest."The Interior Ministry doesn't want to do business with a firm that promotes itself at our expense," said Linda Murniece, interior minister.Scientists grew sceptical as they started inspecting the symmetrically shaped, 3m-deep pit and cynics questioned why a camera crew had been on hand to video the smoking crater.Pernilla Oldmark, spokesman for Tele2 in Stockholm, said the stunt had been intended to kick off a forthcoming marketing campaign. "The message will become clear as soon as the concept is launched," she said, while apologising for the disruption caused.Ms Murniece accused Tele2 of "cynical mockery" at the expense of Latvians and police said they were launching a formal investigation that could lead to criminal charges. "
"An elaborate publicity stunt by a Swedish mobile phone company involving a faked meteorite strike in a Latvian meadow has provided a new case study on how a marketing campaign can backfire.Tele2 on Tuesday promised to reimburse the Baltic nation for the cost of sending military units and scientists to investigate a 10 metre-wide crater that appeared near the Estonian border after locals reported seeing a streak of light cross the sky on Sunday.The Stockholm-based company admitted it had dug the hole and burned chemicals at its base to create the impression of a smouldering meteorite crater.News of the apparent strike attracted worldwide media attention on Monday as Latvian security forces cordoned off the area to conduct radiation tests.A spokesman for Tele2's Latvian unit said the stunt had been intended to distract attention from the country's economic crisis and give people something "creative and exciting" to talk about.But the Latvian government, battling against the deepest recession in the European Union, was not amused and said it would cut its contract with the company in protest."The Interior Ministry doesn't want to do business with a firm that promotes itself at our expense," said Linda Murniece, interior minister.Scientists grew sceptical as they started inspecting the symmetrically shaped, 3m-deep pit and cynics questioned why a camera crew had been on hand to video the smoking crater.Pernilla Oldmark, spokesman for Tele2 in Stockholm, said the stunt had been intended to kick off a forthcoming marketing campaign. "The message will become clear as soon as the concept is launched," she said, while apologising for the disruption caused.Ms Murniece accused Tele2 of "cynical mockery" at the expense of Latvians and police said they were launching a formal investigation that could lead to criminal charges. "
thru the fallen leaves
thru the fallen leaves
I love this time of year. Today i walked over bridge an half an hour ago or so, and you could see sun setting over river of Pärnu at the canvas of dark sky, murky river flowing, and smoke coming from chimneyis permating the air, like there would be fire somewhere, but no, its because winter will be soon here and people burn wood in fireplaces. Leaves are fallen almost, today they were crispy a bit and i was walking thru them today at Vasa park near Theatre and river, longing to hear their sah-sah-sah sound beaneath my feet. :)
I love this time of year. Today i walked over bridge an half an hour ago or so, and you could see sun setting over river of Pärnu at the canvas of dark sky, murky river flowing, and smoke coming from chimneyis permating the air, like there would be fire somewhere, but no, its because winter will be soon here and people burn wood in fireplaces. Leaves are fallen almost, today they were crispy a bit and i was walking thru them today at Vasa park near Theatre and river, longing to hear their sah-sah-sah sound beaneath my feet. :)
oktoober 26, 2009
Sinine esmasp'ev
Blue monday...tired...lazy...should do something
today i dissassembled Angeelika\s bed
lots of renovation in the way,
do some thing do
do i talk sense?
aaaaaaaaghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
stop
been listening to vennaskond lately
not up to discussion
next time maybe
vanaks hakkan j''ma
today i dissassembled Angeelika\s bed
lots of renovation in the way,
do some thing do
do i talk sense?
aaaaaaaaghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
stop
been listening to vennaskond lately
not up to discussion
next time maybe
vanaks hakkan j''ma
oktoober 19, 2009
Election results
Mayor Viisitamm or Tuneoak and Co has been dethoned, new force is called Toomas whose English name would be Stonehill hehe. looks like center party will go into opposition. K party got just 8 places and needles to say, that my boss didnt get in to.
Pärnus võitis valimised Toomas Kivimägi valimisliit (69)
18.10.2009 20:14
Pärnu Postimees
Pärnus võitis valimised Toomas Kivimägi valimisliit, mis kogus 35,6% hääletamas käinudte toetuse..
Toomas Kivimägi valimisliit kogus 7035 häält, mis annab 33kohalises volikogus 14 kohta.
Keskerakond kogus 4314 häält (8 kohta).
Reformierakond kogu 2807 häält (5 kohta).IRL kogus 2457 häält (4 kohta).
Sotsiaaldemoktraatlik erakond on kogunud 1309 häält (2 kohta).Teised erakonnad, valimisliidud ja üksikkandidaadid volikogusse ei pääse.Valimisliit Aus Pärnu kogus 740 häält, üksikkandidaat Koit Pikaro 361 häält, Eesti Iseseisvuspartei 289 häält, Rohelised 182 häält, valimisliit Uus Õiglane Jõud 104 häält, valimisliit mayor.merilaine.ee 99 häält ja üksikkandisaat Andro Roos 24 häält.
Pärnu linnas käis valimas 19 783 inimest.
5 protsendi künnis, millega valimistel kandideerinud nimekiri volikogusse pääses oli 986,05.
Pärnus võitis valimised Toomas Kivimägi valimisliit (69)
18.10.2009 20:14
Pärnu Postimees
Pärnus võitis valimised Toomas Kivimägi valimisliit, mis kogus 35,6% hääletamas käinudte toetuse..
Toomas Kivimägi valimisliit kogus 7035 häält, mis annab 33kohalises volikogus 14 kohta.
Keskerakond kogus 4314 häält (8 kohta).
Reformierakond kogu 2807 häält (5 kohta).IRL kogus 2457 häält (4 kohta).
Sotsiaaldemoktraatlik erakond on kogunud 1309 häält (2 kohta).Teised erakonnad, valimisliidud ja üksikkandidaadid volikogusse ei pääse.Valimisliit Aus Pärnu kogus 740 häält, üksikkandidaat Koit Pikaro 361 häält, Eesti Iseseisvuspartei 289 häält, Rohelised 182 häält, valimisliit Uus Õiglane Jõud 104 häält, valimisliit mayor.merilaine.ee 99 häält ja üksikkandisaat Andro Roos 24 häält.
Pärnu linnas käis valimas 19 783 inimest.
5 protsendi künnis, millega valimistel kandideerinud nimekiri volikogusse pääses oli 986,05.
oktoober 18, 2009
bosses call at election day
that was bit odd
i m still laughing
i just recieved call from my boss, who belongs to one party, he is running for local town assembly these elections.
and asked wheter i have any problems of going to elect , is ther need to transport ther and back, raining etc. i said not thankss, i already did or done it /Tehtud juba hehe
he said thanks
like i did elect him LOL
i voted for person i knew from diffrent green colored party emblem list, from real greens list.
not the one that starts like first letter of my name in Latin wink wink
the most funny thing is that he didnt realize that polling station is just across road from my house hehe, no rain can stop me to cross the street. i was at net place next to it hehe
i m still laughing
i just recieved call from my boss, who belongs to one party, he is running for local town assembly these elections.
and asked wheter i have any problems of going to elect , is ther need to transport ther and back, raining etc. i said not thankss, i already did or done it /Tehtud juba hehe
he said thanks
like i did elect him LOL
i voted for person i knew from diffrent green colored party emblem list, from real greens list.
not the one that starts like first letter of my name in Latin wink wink
the most funny thing is that he didnt realize that polling station is just across road from my house hehe, no rain can stop me to cross the street. i was at net place next to it hehe
Wierd dreams
Im going through interesting phase, wierd dreams. I dreamt Nabil and I meeting girl, who decided to take bull by its hirns so to speak. She climbed on him( laps) and then raised my laptop bag, saying a la we leave it here :) lol. After i protested that was really mine, she looked at me and said resolutly that i can go to my own girl hehe. i dont know what that means, maybe i just want get Nabil lucky :P
and then i saw Dan too, in pub or cafe, and he was saying to you can hang ariound, but dont say anything or something like that..
I started to interperet own earlier dream, using bit astrology hehe. im suspecting that russian estonian speaking girl who hugged me on street and had hypnotic eyes could be Scorpio, at least thats one book claims that scorpio women has hypnotic looks. but maybe its just a dream hehe. some things in astrology abt people seem to be true. anyways there is one scorpio in horizon, but its too early to say that anything will happen... otherwise ususal work, and meeting Angeelika time to time, house renovation, meeting and calling friends.
Today is local goverment assembly day in Parnu, i went to the polll that either elect some one of greens or indipendants or election unions. at the election place i saw Viive Ollo\s name, and i said to myself, now thats a familar name. and turned out she was. so i voted for her
and then i saw Dan too, in pub or cafe, and he was saying to you can hang ariound, but dont say anything or something like that..
I started to interperet own earlier dream, using bit astrology hehe. im suspecting that russian estonian speaking girl who hugged me on street and had hypnotic eyes could be Scorpio, at least thats one book claims that scorpio women has hypnotic looks. but maybe its just a dream hehe. some things in astrology abt people seem to be true. anyways there is one scorpio in horizon, but its too early to say that anything will happen... otherwise ususal work, and meeting Angeelika time to time, house renovation, meeting and calling friends.
Today is local goverment assembly day in Parnu, i went to the polll that either elect some one of greens or indipendants or election unions. at the election place i saw Viive Ollo\s name, and i said to myself, now thats a familar name. and turned out she was. so i voted for her
september 28, 2009
Bicycle KALLE
i WAS cRAZZZZZZY
BUT KNOW tHAT IT TAKES 12 HOURS
TO GET TO cAPITAL WITH BIKE
AND I ONLY DROVE HALF :)
KNEE STARTED TO HURT
BUT KNOW tHAT IT TAKES 12 HOURS
TO GET TO cAPITAL WITH BIKE
AND I ONLY DROVE HALF :)
KNEE STARTED TO HURT
Nab is best or ne imei sto rublei a imei sto druzei :)
even if i argue with him :)
ne imei sto rublei a imei sto druzei :)
thanks dear friends for the weekend
ne imei sto rublei a imei sto druzei :)
thanks dear friends for the weekend
Estonian Honorary consul in Texas
http://uudised.err.ee/?0534940&id=25885&play
watch from minute 11:00
watch from minute 11:00
september 20, 2009
september 13, 2009
Family matters at in Estonia
Rein Taageepera said in one show, Kahekõne(Dialogue) a thought
that Estonian women would probably give birth to more kids if
they would be sure that man will stay beside them for raising kids 20years
issue being a security
and that is a problem
although ive seen women who has give birth more than 3 kids while men change.
and it was claimed that in Aunaste show
about familyrelations that ca 60-70 percents of Kids asked in one study that there is violence
and people yell at each other in their families here in Estonia
that Estonian women would probably give birth to more kids if
they would be sure that man will stay beside them for raising kids 20years
issue being a security
and that is a problem
although ive seen women who has give birth more than 3 kids while men change.
and it was claimed that in Aunaste show
about familyrelations that ca 60-70 percents of Kids asked in one study that there is violence
and people yell at each other in their families here in Estonia
september 12, 2009
GEP
Väga lahe :) oli
Väga Lahe teater :) Nägin eile GEP( Gorjatshie Estonskie Parni) lavastust ETV'st ja naersin sydamest. See on sama hea kui AXIS OF EVIL Comedy Tour( otsige YOUTUBest) Hea eneseiroonia ja sisekaemus eestluse, iibe, rahvusluse, kultuuri, mehe ja ...naiseks olemise, eksistensi ja inimsusesse jne
Väga Lahe teater :) Nägin eile GEP( Gorjatshie Estonskie Parni) lavastust ETV'st ja naersin sydamest. See on sama hea kui AXIS OF EVIL Comedy Tour( otsige YOUTUBest) Hea eneseiroonia ja sisekaemus eestluse, iibe, rahvusluse, kultuuri, mehe ja ...naiseks olemise, eksistensi ja inimsusesse jne
I recommend this
I saw GEP on ETV yesterday, iwas laughing from heart
though you need good command of estonian and russian and probably to live in Estonia or post soviet eastern slash noth eastern europe to get some points
Its as good as Axis of Evil comedy tour( see youtube) Good selfirony and inside look into matters on nationality, survival, culture, being man or woman, fertility rate, population, society, human, existence, etc
September in history
Some events in world History :D
Gloomy ones:
1st of september 1939 Third Reich invades Poland, followed by Soviet Union on 17th , WW2 Begins
7th of september 1893- Ironclad monitor of Czarist Russia Navy sinks in Baltic Sea, Gulf of Finland, all crew perished
9 years later( 1902) the Monument to it is erected, in Tallinn, Estonia
9 september 1976- Death of Mao Zedong
9 september 1087- Death of Willam The Conqeror
4, 9, 13, 16th september 1999- Russian apartment buildings explosions, pretext of 2nd Chechen war
11.september 2001-Hijacked planes?, WTC collapse, Pentagon wall collapse and Pennsylvania plane crash,
TV( CNN etc) playing almost all day looong movielike scenes from Twin Towers, and and interview with Taliban Afghanistan official( and i was thinking to myself then, this means war, big time, will they go after them?; why do they show Afghan offical? If I remember rightly, they were asking about Osama's wherabouts.?) And didnt they name culprit right after the event? That movie about people being trapped in WTC made later , showed a guy, who mentions that it must be Al Qaida, they are terrorists. :)
28th of September 1994- Motorferry Estonia sinks in Baltic Sea.
Joyful:
Music: 10th of september 1984- Hammer to fall , song of Queen of album The Works is Released :)
though song has reference to mushroom cloud and mortality of us all
Births:
10th of September : I was born :)
12th: Leelo, My bro's current GF :)
22nd : Angeelika :)
28th: Kadri :) Ex-GF
Other life events
1st of 09 1984- I go to first Grade here in Estonia, after not being admitted to go 2nd Grad. GRRRRR..not fitting the criteria etc. I became pupil or traineee of Soviet propaganda institution called School, Pärnus 5th 8 classes School :) Later 9th class was added and Later it was called Pärnu Rääma( towndistrict) Elementary School
september 11, 2009
september 10, 2009
Daay before 9 11
http://www.brasschecktv.com/page/706.html
money missing from certain western military commaand branch...
money missing from certain western military commaand branch...
september 07, 2009
How to solve dilemmas
Beats me...
If i want to fully return to Bahai, then i have some issues.
GBLT support or symphaty for them as human beings issues?
Being Logical and yet choosing religion again?
Can I make balance?
Heart and mind?
Give Ceasar that is Ceasars' and God what is God's?
Is afterlife and God real?
Yet i pray at times :D, feels natural at times:)
Is there more suitable religion?
Can we pick and chooce?
Why nudity is worse than picture of corpse in TV screen?
doesnt it all depend on motives of people?
etc. etc?
questions, i neeed answers...
i d love to do something with bahais , to hang around them etc
they are decent bunch, but can i go full way?
i need to solve the riddles
If i want to fully return to Bahai, then i have some issues.
GBLT support or symphaty for them as human beings issues?
Being Logical and yet choosing religion again?
Can I make balance?
Heart and mind?
Give Ceasar that is Ceasars' and God what is God's?
Is afterlife and God real?
Yet i pray at times :D, feels natural at times:)
Is there more suitable religion?
Can we pick and chooce?
Why nudity is worse than picture of corpse in TV screen?
doesnt it all depend on motives of people?
etc. etc?
questions, i neeed answers...
i d love to do something with bahais , to hang around them etc
they are decent bunch, but can i go full way?
i need to solve the riddles
What do you think?
I saw Aunaste's new show, What do you think? thats a title
Mida teie arvate? Its a talkshow with some acting sketches describing
situation. that time it was what do you do as parent or grandparent
living in Estonia( or elswhere), when your child brings to family person from different
colour or bacground. Would that be a problem or how one reacts to that as average estonian?
I see it could be a problem to some, also estonians are small as a nation. we want to protect ourselves from being vanished. And some people are also bit too much afraid of foreigners or racist. There are reasons for that.historical etc. but i think people shouls be openminded and we should grown our own population too :) People are people, no matter what colour they are.
There was opininion voiced that, people wont become tolerant until we work on bringing about ...dont remember exactly but something about humaness and character...something along these lines
Would Estonia be ready for bigger scale of immigration and diffrences of futher Multikulti society? Some would, some wont, of course we dont live like in sweden yet...
but there are different nations here as well.
Mida teie arvate? Its a talkshow with some acting sketches describing
situation. that time it was what do you do as parent or grandparent
living in Estonia( or elswhere), when your child brings to family person from different
colour or bacground. Would that be a problem or how one reacts to that as average estonian?
I see it could be a problem to some, also estonians are small as a nation. we want to protect ourselves from being vanished. And some people are also bit too much afraid of foreigners or racist. There are reasons for that.historical etc. but i think people shouls be openminded and we should grown our own population too :) People are people, no matter what colour they are.
There was opininion voiced that, people wont become tolerant until we work on bringing about ...dont remember exactly but something about humaness and character...something along these lines
Would Estonia be ready for bigger scale of immigration and diffrences of futher Multikulti society? Some would, some wont, of course we dont live like in sweden yet...
but there are different nations here as well.
That Guy is a Fag :P
Last week i had nice, interesting incident. I was sitting on a bench next to medow next Vallikraav and Käär( in english thats the place where it usede to be old town city wall, with fortifications and bastions and moat around it, nowadays there is place in that curve that open field concerts are held)
listening to music. It was Go LiVE annual concert sponsored by one mobile company. I was sitting there and listening to Ines, i need to rest after some walk. And then those some guys passed me, just some guys, young, didnt know them.
And Then one of them ponted at me talking to other saying
See poiss on Pede :P
That boy is Fag :P
Like hello...shrugs... i carried on sitting, why should i get mad :D
If i am so what? But I feel that im attracted to girls :)
More...for sure :)
But dont it makes you to wonder how easy we tag people. label without really knowing them?
listening to music. It was Go LiVE annual concert sponsored by one mobile company. I was sitting there and listening to Ines, i need to rest after some walk. And then those some guys passed me, just some guys, young, didnt know them.
And Then one of them ponted at me talking to other saying
See poiss on Pede :P
That boy is Fag :P
Like hello...shrugs... i carried on sitting, why should i get mad :D
If i am so what? But I feel that im attracted to girls :)
More...for sure :)
But dont it makes you to wonder how easy we tag people. label without really knowing them?
september 04, 2009
Relaxing Hub: What Love Means To Age 4 To 8 Year Old Children
This is Priceless :))
Found it thanks to Tiina...
Relaxing Hub: What Love Means To Age 4 To 8 Year Old Children
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MA TULEN SELLEST VÄLJA
Ei ole mõtet kiruda ega vanduda, ma arvan ma tulen sest olukorrast välja. Üritan, küsin endale lisapäevi kui võimalik ja ma võtan nats avanssi , aga nii et järgmine kuu midagi kaaa alles on :) Muidu back to square one :)
Olukord in kyll pisut keeruline, aga mitte lootusetu. Parem töökoht lahendaks olukorra, aga eks ma vaatan mida praeguses olukorras teha saab. Laenata ei tahaks. Katus peakohal ja toit laual on olemas, nii et pole hullu. Nüüd vaataks kas saab olukorda parandada, realistlikust vaatepunktist lähtudest...
Wyatt tegi ette paneku et kui ta oma restorani voi ms teeb et ma voiks olla mänedzer, Tegelikult ma mingil määral olen ju seda juu teinud, ma pean endasee rohkem uskuma ja tegema asju. Muidugi Wyatti restoran ei pruugi niipea reaalsuseks saada ga ma tegelikult olen ju asju hallanud, inimestega suhelnud, ma mõtlen om sekretäri kogemust, seda ei saa küll paberile panna, religioosne värk on Eestis veits tundlik. Ma saa öelda aga et ma sellega yldse hakkama ei saaks kui ma ei prooviks. Ma pean kyll oma CV d putitama ja voib olla yhtkoma teist juurde õppima ja paberied hankima jne, Ja ma pean kuskil võimaluse saama kaa... eks näis mis saama hakkab....
Angeelika saab oma raha ka :) Ma nägin Angeelikat ja Katat unes, Me vannitasime last...liinibussis :D Täna ta helistas, hea meel oli kuulda tast. Skypeta on elu nats harjumatu... Ja ma näen septembri lõpus Neid uuesti Eestis. Ja ma inspekteerisin mingeid monumente ka surnu aias, nagu Riia maantee omades... Nii et elu ja surm
huvitav
september 03, 2009
Artlust arutlust
Las Tulevik tooob...arutust? :D:D:D
Arutust ehk Aruvabadust ?
Ma olen naljakas ka :))
tegelikult, Wyatt ütles et ma üleanalüüsin asju aga ma ei saa sinna mitte midagi parata. Seee oli siis kui me perest rääkisime, perest kui sellisest. Et miks Ameerikas ja tal hoiab pere kokku ja Eestis ollakse suhteliselt hajali. Ei saada läbi ja tehakse omi asju. Vaevalt et koik asjad korras on aga suheldakse. Mul on selline tunne et siin on paljud pered löhkised. Osad inimesed ei taha teistega tegemist teha , vanad vaenud ja värgid. Aga ma saan öelda ka et see oleneb inimestest. Ega ma ise parem pole olnud aga ma saan emaga läbi ja tema juurde ma lähen kyll törkumata. Isaga on nii ja naa. Nyyd on veits parem läbisaamine. Reeglina mulle ei istu et ma pean kellegagi läbi saama selle pärast et pean, et pere peab olema koos ja häppi. Ma pean tundma et ma tahan selle inimese juurde minna, ja see söltub paljudest faktoritest. Ega ma isa muuta ei saa, siis, ma olen see kes ma olen ja lasen tal olla see kes ta on. Viimane jutujamine yks osa oli kyll tüüpiline, a la see habe ei sobi sulle, võiks laiem olla, aga tülli me eiläinud. Juu mul on paksem nahk on. Pärast öde ytles, et tal oli hea meel et ma rääkima tulin
Igastahes, mul oleks tegelt arutust vaja, arutlust on kyll olnud.
Muidu ma ei armu kunagi hullult ära, sellist kus teha midagi meeletut.
vaid ratsionaliseerin köik ära. Mis armastust see on?, armastus on tundeline nagu metsik jögi
vähemalt see esimene faas....armastus on ka ideaalis muutmatu ja igikestev. mitte just inim oma igakord. Mingi itaalia vana söna käis nii et Igavene (inim) armastus kestab kaks :D aastat :)
ja ma olen idikas laenates, Tiina sõnavara et, ma lasin oma arvuti katki minna Wyatti juures, kõvaketas (mitte emaplaat) tuleb välja vahetada, veekahjustus. oh happy day ;)
ja ma pidin ta elioni kaa viima, mul järelmaksukas
aga paar tonni liskulu kuus. i love it, really :P
Arutust ehk Aruvabadust ?
Ma olen naljakas ka :))
tegelikult, Wyatt ütles et ma üleanalüüsin asju aga ma ei saa sinna mitte midagi parata. Seee oli siis kui me perest rääkisime, perest kui sellisest. Et miks Ameerikas ja tal hoiab pere kokku ja Eestis ollakse suhteliselt hajali. Ei saada läbi ja tehakse omi asju. Vaevalt et koik asjad korras on aga suheldakse. Mul on selline tunne et siin on paljud pered löhkised. Osad inimesed ei taha teistega tegemist teha , vanad vaenud ja värgid. Aga ma saan öelda ka et see oleneb inimestest. Ega ma ise parem pole olnud aga ma saan emaga läbi ja tema juurde ma lähen kyll törkumata. Isaga on nii ja naa. Nyyd on veits parem läbisaamine. Reeglina mulle ei istu et ma pean kellegagi läbi saama selle pärast et pean, et pere peab olema koos ja häppi. Ma pean tundma et ma tahan selle inimese juurde minna, ja see söltub paljudest faktoritest. Ega ma isa muuta ei saa, siis, ma olen see kes ma olen ja lasen tal olla see kes ta on. Viimane jutujamine yks osa oli kyll tüüpiline, a la see habe ei sobi sulle, võiks laiem olla, aga tülli me eiläinud. Juu mul on paksem nahk on. Pärast öde ytles, et tal oli hea meel et ma rääkima tulin
Igastahes, mul oleks tegelt arutust vaja, arutlust on kyll olnud.
Muidu ma ei armu kunagi hullult ära, sellist kus teha midagi meeletut.
vaid ratsionaliseerin köik ära. Mis armastust see on?, armastus on tundeline nagu metsik jögi
vähemalt see esimene faas....armastus on ka ideaalis muutmatu ja igikestev. mitte just inim oma igakord. Mingi itaalia vana söna käis nii et Igavene (inim) armastus kestab kaks :D aastat :)
ja ma olen idikas laenates, Tiina sõnavara et, ma lasin oma arvuti katki minna Wyatti juures, kõvaketas (mitte emaplaat) tuleb välja vahetada, veekahjustus. oh happy day ;)
ja ma pidin ta elioni kaa viima, mul järelmaksukas
aga paar tonni liskulu kuus. i love it, really :P
august 31, 2009
Tallinnas
Oli Vahva töeliselt vahva, kuigi päev oli vihmane ja mu arvuti hangus Wyatti juures ülesse ja siis
ma olin jälle kärbes seinal, tunnistajaks teise pere suhete draamale. Rääkisin Wyattiga tema suhtest ja tööst jaa maast ja ilmast. Enda omast ka ja eelmisest suhtest.Ja siis me üritasime, mina vähemalt, olla jutuvestja, ja rääkida lugusid et Kristjan ei mängiks PSP ga ainult ega läheks vihma kätte, istusime trepil ja rääkisime jutte ja siis siperkangelaste teema ka. Kui sa oleks super kangelane kes sa siis oleks? Mängeldes. Õnneks jäi vihm järele hiljem Ta on siiski hea isa ja saab oma pojaga hästi läbi, vähemalt praegu ja näiliselt. Vahel me tögame üksteist ja väikselt närvidele käime aga tal pole muidu häda midagi.
LÕpuks tulid nad kõik, Riina ja Kristian ka Nabili juurde. algul vist sellist plaani polnud.
Aga noh vaat mis juhtuda võib, ma vaid oma mahaunustatud dushigeeli ja deodorandi järgi läksin ju, algul pid Wyatt Kristianiga tegelema ja siis ta ütles et vb ta tuleb. Lõpuks tulid teised ka :) Äkki oli mingi plaan ;) et ma unustaksin selleks oma ajad maha, et lõpuks Wilsonid Nabili juurde tuleks ;)
Nad ise muidugi tulid :)
Meil oli tore õhtu Nabili juures. rohkem small talk baasil aga see on ka vahelduseks hea.
Ja siis me läksime Nabili,Dani, Adrienne, Tiina ja Tiiaga Nightteacap'ile Reval Cafe'sse Vanalinnas. Ja me rääkiseme ka Noorteseminari minevikust ja tulevikust ja muid asju ka näiteks mis USA linn keegi oleks.
Mulle sattus Chicago :) pidi olema organiseeritud ehitatult linn, millel on tume pool ja toidukultuur:) midagi sarnast heh veits :)
Ma oleks võinud rohkem yks yhele juttu puhuda, kohati ma tegin seda aga rohkem nagu kommentaarid yldjutule. Teinekord..
ja kui me minema asutasime läbi Vihma, taas :)
ma plätudes ja õhukeses riietuses ja jopes, nagu pärnakas ikka.
Mõtlesin et huvitav mida vastutulijad arvata võivad :D aga ma ei põe see pärast.
ööbisin Nabili juures ja me rääkisime pikalt ja laialt, minu limbostaatusest ja vaadetest enne ja pärast suhtelõppu perioodi.
Järgmine päev hommikustasin Nabiga, ta nõustas mind karjäärivalikul ja soovitas midagi ette võtta kiiremini :),
ja siis veetsin 3 tundi umbes kvaliteetaega oma õe Lindaga, rääkisime veidi Rootsist, bahaidest, religioonidest, perekonnast, sugulastest, tööst ja peresuhetest ja maailmast, filmidest, poliitikast, Vabaduseristist, etc tema atekas Kadriorus :) Mul oli hea meel teda näha :) taas :)
ja siis hakkasin Ma pärnusse Tulema, algul mõtlesin et lähen bussi, ja hiljem sõitsin Rongijaama ja siin tsuhh-tsuhh läbi Eesti Pärnusse. Ja ma nägin vikerkaart :)
kõik muu on eelmises postituses :)
ma olin jälle kärbes seinal, tunnistajaks teise pere suhete draamale. Rääkisin Wyattiga tema suhtest ja tööst jaa maast ja ilmast. Enda omast ka ja eelmisest suhtest.Ja siis me üritasime, mina vähemalt, olla jutuvestja, ja rääkida lugusid et Kristjan ei mängiks PSP ga ainult ega läheks vihma kätte, istusime trepil ja rääkisime jutte ja siis siperkangelaste teema ka. Kui sa oleks super kangelane kes sa siis oleks? Mängeldes. Õnneks jäi vihm järele hiljem Ta on siiski hea isa ja saab oma pojaga hästi läbi, vähemalt praegu ja näiliselt. Vahel me tögame üksteist ja väikselt närvidele käime aga tal pole muidu häda midagi.
LÕpuks tulid nad kõik, Riina ja Kristian ka Nabili juurde. algul vist sellist plaani polnud.
Aga noh vaat mis juhtuda võib, ma vaid oma mahaunustatud dushigeeli ja deodorandi järgi läksin ju, algul pid Wyatt Kristianiga tegelema ja siis ta ütles et vb ta tuleb. Lõpuks tulid teised ka :) Äkki oli mingi plaan ;) et ma unustaksin selleks oma ajad maha, et lõpuks Wilsonid Nabili juurde tuleks ;)
Nad ise muidugi tulid :)
Meil oli tore õhtu Nabili juures. rohkem small talk baasil aga see on ka vahelduseks hea.
Ja siis me läksime Nabili,Dani, Adrienne, Tiina ja Tiiaga Nightteacap'ile Reval Cafe'sse Vanalinnas. Ja me rääkiseme ka Noorteseminari minevikust ja tulevikust ja muid asju ka näiteks mis USA linn keegi oleks.
Mulle sattus Chicago :) pidi olema organiseeritud ehitatult linn, millel on tume pool ja toidukultuur:) midagi sarnast heh veits :)
Ma oleks võinud rohkem yks yhele juttu puhuda, kohati ma tegin seda aga rohkem nagu kommentaarid yldjutule. Teinekord..
ja kui me minema asutasime läbi Vihma, taas :)
ma plätudes ja õhukeses riietuses ja jopes, nagu pärnakas ikka.
Mõtlesin et huvitav mida vastutulijad arvata võivad :D aga ma ei põe see pärast.
ööbisin Nabili juures ja me rääkisime pikalt ja laialt, minu limbostaatusest ja vaadetest enne ja pärast suhtelõppu perioodi.
Järgmine päev hommikustasin Nabiga, ta nõustas mind karjäärivalikul ja soovitas midagi ette võtta kiiremini :),
ja siis veetsin 3 tundi umbes kvaliteetaega oma õe Lindaga, rääkisime veidi Rootsist, bahaidest, religioonidest, perekonnast, sugulastest, tööst ja peresuhetest ja maailmast, filmidest, poliitikast, Vabaduseristist, etc tema atekas Kadriorus :) Mul oli hea meel teda näha :) taas :)
ja siis hakkasin Ma pärnusse Tulema, algul mõtlesin et lähen bussi, ja hiljem sõitsin Rongijaama ja siin tsuhh-tsuhh läbi Eesti Pärnusse. Ja ma nägin vikerkaart :)
kõik muu on eelmises postituses :)
Mis toimub????
On kuningas täna ülal
narrina käib mööda tube
ta veider tunne
arvata seda ei osand
soovist mis sündinud eile
igatsus oootamatu
istub hinges
suu tõrgub, haaramas toru
õige see või väär
ikka vasardab peas
geograafiline vahemaa
eksida ei soovi
toru käib hargile
üles ja alla
dramaatiliselt, valimas numbrit
rääkida sooviks
ujedus sees
kuis mõtled sest
?Kas arm on see?
Tundsin sust puudust
ikkagi ei osanud arvata
igatsust ei osanud oodata
nagu sõltuvus oleks sees
aa, mis toimub, poisike (ja kes siis veel?)
Pärnu 30-31.08.09õ
Come what may...jah võibolla ei ole kyll kõik see nagu ma kujutan ette ja võib olla ei tule sest midagi välja. Viimastel päevadel st eelmise nädala jooksul kaevasin üles Moulin Rouge soundtracki kasseti ja ma olen seda mitu päeva kuulanud.Ja ma leidsin aegunäinud Tallinna perioodil saadud filmiplakati(mille mu eks-korteriomanik ykskord tahtis ära visata, leidsin ta kord paberikorvist ja muidugi ma võtsin ta taas üles ja panin ta seinale tagasi). Nagu ka see kord. Mitte et see identselt minu lugu oleks ja olema saab. Moulin Rouge on pisut Romeo ja Julialik, ja minu eelmine suhe oli ka Romeo ja Julialik. Eri põhjustel ja teise nurga alt aga pisut Romeo ja Julialik siiski. Tulevik??
Ja ma jalutan täna tänaval ja siis tuleb meelde Vse mogut Koroli... ja ma mäletan ennast Moskvas väiksena kuulamas seda raadiost, sellisest kandilisest kastikujulisest,peal lainepikkusedja linnade nimed, lamamas voodis, ma ei mäleta kui vana ma olin, aga see laul ja hetk on mul tänaseni meeles... ne mozhet ni odin, ni odin korol...
Ok , ma ei saa ennast veel kõikide veel laulujuppidega ennast samastada, veel, ja võib olla mitte
aga millegagi lõpuks. igaljuhul on midagi lahti, ma ei tea kuidas seda nimetada, aga kui te oleks mind eile näinud siis rahulikust minast polnud grammigi sel hetkel
Ok, mu arvuti sai niiskust põhjast ka ja nüüd on ta paranduses(imelikul kombel vana IBM kuidagi töötab aga mitte täielikult, ja ma olen vähem internetis, aga siin ma olen, saan raamatukogus arvutit kasutada. Veits väsinud sest sain magada ca 6 tundi, ise ärkasin üles. olin 3ni umbes ylal, ostsisin yhte teatud numbrit, käisin nagu kass ümber palava pudru telefoni juures, valisin ja enne vastuvõttu katkestasin ja hangusin nagu mu arvuti yleeile. Siis Ma sain oma vana arvuti tööle, seadistasin pisut et pääseda internetti, mis mul lühidalt õnnestus. ju mul on siis kommunikatsiooni vajadus hoopis või siis sõltuvus ga tavaliselt olen ma rahulikum. pärast rahunesin pisut vaatasin filmi ja jäin magama. aga kommunikatsiooni vajadus on ikka veel alles ja see tunne ka, tõeline või ajutine eks tulevik näitab? suhelda oleks ka hea :) äkki ma kujutan seda ette, ja on ainult sümpaatia, sümpaatia on kindlalt ja huvi ka..
Kui ma poleks veits väsinud ytleksin et mul on palavik, aga haige ma vist pole.
las tulevik toob arutust
ja i better shape up....:)
narrina käib mööda tube
ta veider tunne
arvata seda ei osand
soovist mis sündinud eile
igatsus oootamatu
istub hinges
suu tõrgub, haaramas toru
õige see või väär
ikka vasardab peas
geograafiline vahemaa
eksida ei soovi
toru käib hargile
üles ja alla
dramaatiliselt, valimas numbrit
rääkida sooviks
ujedus sees
kuis mõtled sest
?Kas arm on see?
Tundsin sust puudust
ikkagi ei osanud arvata
igatsust ei osanud oodata
nagu sõltuvus oleks sees
aa, mis toimub, poisike (ja kes siis veel?)
Pärnu 30-31.08.09õ
Come what may...jah võibolla ei ole kyll kõik see nagu ma kujutan ette ja võib olla ei tule sest midagi välja. Viimastel päevadel st eelmise nädala jooksul kaevasin üles Moulin Rouge soundtracki kasseti ja ma olen seda mitu päeva kuulanud.Ja ma leidsin aegunäinud Tallinna perioodil saadud filmiplakati(mille mu eks-korteriomanik ykskord tahtis ära visata, leidsin ta kord paberikorvist ja muidugi ma võtsin ta taas üles ja panin ta seinale tagasi). Nagu ka see kord. Mitte et see identselt minu lugu oleks ja olema saab. Moulin Rouge on pisut Romeo ja Julialik, ja minu eelmine suhe oli ka Romeo ja Julialik. Eri põhjustel ja teise nurga alt aga pisut Romeo ja Julialik siiski. Tulevik??
Ja ma jalutan täna tänaval ja siis tuleb meelde Vse mogut Koroli... ja ma mäletan ennast Moskvas väiksena kuulamas seda raadiost, sellisest kandilisest kastikujulisest,peal lainepikkusedja linnade nimed, lamamas voodis, ma ei mäleta kui vana ma olin, aga see laul ja hetk on mul tänaseni meeles... ne mozhet ni odin, ni odin korol...
Ok , ma ei saa ennast veel kõikide veel laulujuppidega ennast samastada, veel, ja võib olla mitte
aga millegagi lõpuks. igaljuhul on midagi lahti, ma ei tea kuidas seda nimetada, aga kui te oleks mind eile näinud siis rahulikust minast polnud grammigi sel hetkel
Ok, mu arvuti sai niiskust põhjast ka ja nüüd on ta paranduses(imelikul kombel vana IBM kuidagi töötab aga mitte täielikult, ja ma olen vähem internetis, aga siin ma olen, saan raamatukogus arvutit kasutada. Veits väsinud sest sain magada ca 6 tundi, ise ärkasin üles. olin 3ni umbes ylal, ostsisin yhte teatud numbrit, käisin nagu kass ümber palava pudru telefoni juures, valisin ja enne vastuvõttu katkestasin ja hangusin nagu mu arvuti yleeile. Siis Ma sain oma vana arvuti tööle, seadistasin pisut et pääseda internetti, mis mul lühidalt õnnestus. ju mul on siis kommunikatsiooni vajadus hoopis või siis sõltuvus ga tavaliselt olen ma rahulikum. pärast rahunesin pisut vaatasin filmi ja jäin magama. aga kommunikatsiooni vajadus on ikka veel alles ja see tunne ka, tõeline või ajutine eks tulevik näitab? suhelda oleks ka hea :) äkki ma kujutan seda ette, ja on ainult sümpaatia, sümpaatia on kindlalt ja huvi ka..
Kui ma poleks veits väsinud ytleksin et mul on palavik, aga haige ma vist pole.
las tulevik toob arutust
ja i better shape up....:)
august 29, 2009
Thinking Thin King
I read portion of FIG about change and friendships or relationships to be affected in course of becoming Bahai, this applies other communites and changes as well. Sure its going to be affected, it was then and and it will be. Again. I will keep my frienships even now in these being between times. Id like to ceep both companies like they are now, but i know there will be a dilemma. Beeing treated nicely though so far. and being loved no matter what too :) Like Parent or friend or really realy loving girl accepting you who are and loving the way you are. Almost of course, none of us is really perfect, but i will give my effort. And indeed whatever you do and your friends do is going to affect you. Sometimes good, sometimes not so good and you will not be same. Like the friend of mine who raises gay son and stands by him even if some of her ex-friends dont understand. We dont even most accepting cant fathom the situation, because we are neither in their shoes, we can just be tolerant to idea, of someone choosing different path. As they say in God idea universe only God can really judge people. If there is God of course. Not sure. There is something out there, But as its said if God didnt exist, then we should invent him :).
only thing that this world, human nature is blessed with at least two sides to every story. dilemma is like natural part of us. mind and body.religion adds to it soul of course :)
i know that they are linked, but yet separate. and they are nessesary. gotta find balance. peace of mind or fece of mind :)
have you got the feeling that you dont know what to do, which way to go, confusion, been drawn to several directions. like swan, pike and crawfish :)
well welcome to my world.
i usually live day by day, but keep thinking what if next relationship will be like. dont want to be it the same, riddled by same mistakes.
or sometimes i wonder should i go to into relationships from now on. yet im human being, being alone and spending some quality time with own self is fine. I like it and saviour it. Yet its fun to be people, regardless of gender, to talk to exchange too. we are social beings, and sooner or later crave for companionships in all forms. we want to be noticed, talked to, admired, loved too :) We can say that i write this blog just for own, but deep down its a message in bottle tossed into ocean of existence. Hoping to be found also :)
yet we know, that we are also driven by self interest even if our effort to be altruisious is genuine in our search for partner , love, friendships, or helping others out. we work this way too :) in fact helping others is also selfish too, because if everything and especially your friends influence you, then it is in your own self interest to help others :) so that world around you would not be pain in ass place to live , not just for you, but for your children.
do we know what we really really want? kinda...but there is loong way to go
i know that at times i want to be naughty yet i want at times the rules, and i feel drawn to bahais back.
minus some issues that is. dilemma eternal or at least till end our days :)
i just know that each part of being human want what belongs to it. nature calls for body, and reasoning and philosophical metaphysical drive for mind and soul( those two in idea of religion are connected.) And Mind drives body too. I think that most sexiest part of body is brain, cause it is commanding post for body) Say something wise or you or show me your that you question things, and this attracts my attention.:D
at least even if i dont go physical with person , that person will have respect in my eyes. but i am tolerant too, each person is smart in something. they dont need to be wise my way. And I appreciate also if someone is driven by heart approach. Im fact this is what i liked about Kadri, she is sweet person, caring, never mind the bad sides :) and i will see her way for rest of my existance :)
I want it all and cant help it. its in our nature, to want it all. thankfully there is reason to help to figure it out, yet at same time it makes things really complicated... aaaaagh. but we have to live with it :)
life will go on....nevertheless
only thing that this world, human nature is blessed with at least two sides to every story. dilemma is like natural part of us. mind and body.religion adds to it soul of course :)
i know that they are linked, but yet separate. and they are nessesary. gotta find balance. peace of mind or fece of mind :)
have you got the feeling that you dont know what to do, which way to go, confusion, been drawn to several directions. like swan, pike and crawfish :)
well welcome to my world.
i usually live day by day, but keep thinking what if next relationship will be like. dont want to be it the same, riddled by same mistakes.
or sometimes i wonder should i go to into relationships from now on. yet im human being, being alone and spending some quality time with own self is fine. I like it and saviour it. Yet its fun to be people, regardless of gender, to talk to exchange too. we are social beings, and sooner or later crave for companionships in all forms. we want to be noticed, talked to, admired, loved too :) We can say that i write this blog just for own, but deep down its a message in bottle tossed into ocean of existence. Hoping to be found also :)
yet we know, that we are also driven by self interest even if our effort to be altruisious is genuine in our search for partner , love, friendships, or helping others out. we work this way too :) in fact helping others is also selfish too, because if everything and especially your friends influence you, then it is in your own self interest to help others :) so that world around you would not be pain in ass place to live , not just for you, but for your children.
do we know what we really really want? kinda...but there is loong way to go
i know that at times i want to be naughty yet i want at times the rules, and i feel drawn to bahais back.
minus some issues that is. dilemma eternal or at least till end our days :)
i just know that each part of being human want what belongs to it. nature calls for body, and reasoning and philosophical metaphysical drive for mind and soul( those two in idea of religion are connected.) And Mind drives body too. I think that most sexiest part of body is brain, cause it is commanding post for body) Say something wise or you or show me your that you question things, and this attracts my attention.:D
at least even if i dont go physical with person , that person will have respect in my eyes. but i am tolerant too, each person is smart in something. they dont need to be wise my way. And I appreciate also if someone is driven by heart approach. Im fact this is what i liked about Kadri, she is sweet person, caring, never mind the bad sides :) and i will see her way for rest of my existance :)
I want it all and cant help it. its in our nature, to want it all. thankfully there is reason to help to figure it out, yet at same time it makes things really complicated... aaaaagh. but we have to live with it :)
life will go on....nevertheless
august 28, 2009
Madonna booed in Bucharest for defending Gypsies - omg! news on Yahoo!
Facebook | Khaled Al-Assi: "('It has been brought to my attention ... that there is a lot of discrimination against Romanies and Gypsies in general in Eastern Europe,' she said. 'It made me feel very sad.'
Thousands booed and jeered her.
A few cheered when sh...e added: 'We don't believe in discrimination ... we believe in freedom and equal rights for everyone.' But she got more boos when she mentioned discrimination against homosexuals and others.)
(Madonna's outrage touched a nerve in Romania, but it seems doubtful it will change anything, said the Soros Foundation's Motoc.
'Madonna is a pop star. She is not an expert on interethnic relations,' he said.)
WTF, is wrong with those people. She has to be expert on interethnic relations to say that it makes her very sad to see or hear about discrimination :D ????????? Like she comes from Mars... Madonna can be bold, liberal and provocative, but she is human being and i like she said what she said this time. You go, girl :)
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Madonna booed in Bucharest for defending Gypsies - omg! news on Yahoo!
http://omg.yahoo.com/news/madonna-booed-in-bucharest-for-defending-gypsies/26947Source: omg.yahoo.com
Thousands booed and jeered her.
A few cheered when sh...e added: 'We don't believe in discrimination ... we believe in freedom and equal rights for everyone.' But she got more boos when she mentioned discrimination against homosexuals and others.)
(Madonna's outrage touched a nerve in Romania, but it seems doubtful it will change anything, said the Soros Foundation's Motoc.
'Madonna is a pop star. She is not an expert on interethnic relations,' he said.)
WTF, is wrong with those people. She has to be expert on interethnic relations to say that it makes her very sad to see or hear about discrimination :D ????????? Like she comes from Mars... Madonna can be bold, liberal and provocative, but she is human being and i like she said what she said this time. You go, girl :)
Read more
Madonna booed in Bucharest for defending Gypsies - omg! news on Yahoo!
http://omg.yahoo.com/news/madonna-booed-in-bucharest-for-defending-gypsies/26947Source: omg.yahoo.com
august 27, 2009
Eeyore
Was and still in Eeyore mood a still:
Who is he see: http://www.just-pooh.com/eeyore.html
"Eeyore is a favorite amongst most admirers of Winnie the Pooh characters and he is an unbelievably loveable donkey who is dismally gloomy for almost eternity. But that’s not Eeyore’s perception of himself, according to him; he doesn’t expect too much of himself and therefore remains quiet for most of the time. That in no ways means he isn’t an intelligent animal, he is actually quite knowledgeable yet he confines his knowledge to himself. This is the reason why he is very quiet most of the time and a bit depressed. Eeyore, a very gloomy, blue-gray donkey, is stuffed with sawdust. His appearance is highlighted by a small light pink bow on his tail; this reflects well on this animal when there is an occasional hint of joy that surfaces in Eeyore
Eeyore has very little expectations from his friends and therefore wherever there is an occasion where his friends gather around his to help him, his thoughts of receiving the worst are dismissed and he has a feeling of being grateful to them. Eeyore’s biggest problem is when his tail falls off and that happens frequently (he has lost it many times). And this is where his friends help him the most and amongst all friends Christopher Robin is the one who mostly undertakes the job of fixing Eeyore’s tail. Christopher uses a drawing pin to reattach the tail. Owl once mistook Eeyore’s tail for being a bell-pull. He shall often pretend that he is helping his friends in their time of need because he has nothing better to do but that in no way means he is unwilling to help, Eeyore is always ready to lend a helping hand to his friends."
He is in many ways like me. I dont know , i just want to be sad too. do you get the feeling that nobody really wants to be with you at times, things are not working out, and youre back at reality? where most people care about themselves, nice guys finish last and youre doomed to carry on faulty gene, that gives your children chance to be handicapped in society that worships healthy and perfect ones...
ok not beeen the nicest you know all the time...but you know what i mean...
tadaaaaa
Song list that goes with feelings
Nice guys finish last by Green Day
Boulevard of Broken dreams - Green day
Hey You-Pink Floyd
Well and bit better one
Coldpay- Fix YOU :)
Who is he see: http://www.just-pooh.com/eeyore.html
"Eeyore is a favorite amongst most admirers of Winnie the Pooh characters and he is an unbelievably loveable donkey who is dismally gloomy for almost eternity. But that’s not Eeyore’s perception of himself, according to him; he doesn’t expect too much of himself and therefore remains quiet for most of the time. That in no ways means he isn’t an intelligent animal, he is actually quite knowledgeable yet he confines his knowledge to himself. This is the reason why he is very quiet most of the time and a bit depressed. Eeyore, a very gloomy, blue-gray donkey, is stuffed with sawdust. His appearance is highlighted by a small light pink bow on his tail; this reflects well on this animal when there is an occasional hint of joy that surfaces in Eeyore
Eeyore has very little expectations from his friends and therefore wherever there is an occasion where his friends gather around his to help him, his thoughts of receiving the worst are dismissed and he has a feeling of being grateful to them. Eeyore’s biggest problem is when his tail falls off and that happens frequently (he has lost it many times). And this is where his friends help him the most and amongst all friends Christopher Robin is the one who mostly undertakes the job of fixing Eeyore’s tail. Christopher uses a drawing pin to reattach the tail. Owl once mistook Eeyore’s tail for being a bell-pull. He shall often pretend that he is helping his friends in their time of need because he has nothing better to do but that in no way means he is unwilling to help, Eeyore is always ready to lend a helping hand to his friends."
He is in many ways like me. I dont know , i just want to be sad too. do you get the feeling that nobody really wants to be with you at times, things are not working out, and youre back at reality? where most people care about themselves, nice guys finish last and youre doomed to carry on faulty gene, that gives your children chance to be handicapped in society that worships healthy and perfect ones...
ok not beeen the nicest you know all the time...but you know what i mean...
tadaaaaa
Song list that goes with feelings
Nice guys finish last by Green Day
Boulevard of Broken dreams - Green day
Hey You-Pink Floyd
Well and bit better one
Coldpay- Fix YOU :)
august 23, 2009
swdedish post
hej Sverige :)
Olen hetkel Undeni järve lahedal, Tivedeni piirkonnas, mille lähim linn on Laxa(Lakso) Örebrost edelas, mis on 275 km Stockholmist metsade keskel.
NÄdal hakkab tais saama,ja eilne vÄhipidu ja synna on ka labi. Homme Uppsala :)
ja siis Stockholm. Ja siis Baltic Queen ja koju :) Tallinn, nats seal ja Koju :)
Wyatti sÕbra Roberti pere on joviaalne, kylalislahke ja vahva. Nalja on saanud. parasjagu koike. Ja eilne synna oli ikka veits sootuks erinevat. Skandinaavalased voivad olla reserveeritud aga laulda ja pidutseda oskavad nad ikka kyll korralikult.
Rootsi on parajalt kirju struktuuriga maa ja Orebro tanavapilt oli veits erinev. kuigi mitte vaga. ainuke erand on eri rahvuste ja riietumisviiside erinevus. moslemi naisi oli naha, somaali omasid. ja ka peol ka mitmeid eri inimesi. Vahva oli.
Olen hetkel Undeni järve lahedal, Tivedeni piirkonnas, mille lähim linn on Laxa(Lakso) Örebrost edelas, mis on 275 km Stockholmist metsade keskel.
NÄdal hakkab tais saama,ja eilne vÄhipidu ja synna on ka labi. Homme Uppsala :)
ja siis Stockholm. Ja siis Baltic Queen ja koju :) Tallinn, nats seal ja Koju :)
Wyatti sÕbra Roberti pere on joviaalne, kylalislahke ja vahva. Nalja on saanud. parasjagu koike. Ja eilne synna oli ikka veits sootuks erinevat. Skandinaavalased voivad olla reserveeritud aga laulda ja pidutseda oskavad nad ikka kyll korralikult.
Rootsi on parajalt kirju struktuuriga maa ja Orebro tanavapilt oli veits erinev. kuigi mitte vaga. ainuke erand on eri rahvuste ja riietumisviiside erinevus. moslemi naisi oli naha, somaali omasid. ja ka peol ka mitmeid eri inimesi. Vahva oli.
august 18, 2009
Pärnust ja Angeelikast; Tallinnasse
Kalevite Kants on kivi viske kaugusel ja ma istun LindaLiini kohvikus ja tõmban hinge. Nagu ikka ma ei maganud piisavalt, ja siis ma kirjutasin blogis ja FB-s. Ja sõitsime Kata ja Anxuga Rongiga Tallinna rataste rappudes. Aitasin Katat. nüüd on naad taas Soomemaale läinud.Hakkan pisikest igatsema ... aga ma näen teda jälle millalgi. loodetavasti pealegi ma sain teda 2 nädalat näha,:)
Is it true mängib raadios jälle, see Islandi eurolaul, mis nii lahkumineku ajaks Eurol ilma tegi.
jah ka see laul on lahkuminekust, saatuse iroonia et see laul ja laulja kaa meeldis mulle väga peale Rändajaid ja Türgi tantsijaid...
aga see selleks...
las rännak algata, täna on uus päev ja ma veedan aega Wyattiga :)
Let the Journey begin
Each journey starts from first step :)
I will embark soon at dawn, go north and then move westwards :)
Soon i will say Hej! well at next Dawn...
A virgin territory :))
A revanche :)
Not going to forget passport or ticket like 1998
before trip to Focusing all Efforts :)
I was walking with Nabil day or two before trip with briefcase inside passport and ticket. and i neede to tie my shoes, so i did, putting bc at the street, tied my laces, sttod up and continued walking and talking Nabil until ...iremembered....
where is my briefcase :)) hehe. its funny now but not then,
i can be so professorlike...out of this world...at times
anyways i found the brief, after rathere quriouus attempt to ask security guy at then Tallinna Bank which became Banco Unione and now SEB to show mw the tape, did i or didnt forget my case at ATM room, i got to know in Pärnu, while other where at conference that someone took it to Viru Hotel :D
but not this time i hope, i will go with Wyatt to vist his freind and see liitle bit
of Svearige :)
I will embark soon at dawn, go north and then move westwards :)
Soon i will say Hej! well at next Dawn...
A virgin territory :))
A revanche :)
Not going to forget passport or ticket like 1998
before trip to Focusing all Efforts :)
I was walking with Nabil day or two before trip with briefcase inside passport and ticket. and i neede to tie my shoes, so i did, putting bc at the street, tied my laces, sttod up and continued walking and talking Nabil until ...iremembered....
where is my briefcase :)) hehe. its funny now but not then,
i can be so professorlike...out of this world...at times
anyways i found the brief, after rathere quriouus attempt to ask security guy at then Tallinna Bank which became Banco Unione and now SEB to show mw the tape, did i or didnt forget my case at ATM room, i got to know in Pärnu, while other where at conference that someone took it to Viru Hotel :D
but not this time i hope, i will go with Wyatt to vist his freind and see liitle bit
of Svearige :)
august 16, 2009
Inimeselugu-Juhan Viiding
Surub nurka inimene ennast,
kas ta üldse enam imestab?
Kas ta mõtleb,
mis on saanud vennast?
Ja et valgus silmi pimestab?
Kuidas saame oma vaatenurgast
näha täiust?
Nürinurga alt? Anna andeks!
Oma hingenurgast ma ei valgustanud piisavalt.
Meil on kiire! Mõelgem selle peale!
Selles ilmas ei saa harjuda!
Teeme terveks oma murtud hääle!
Siis saab vaikselt APPI KARJUDA!
kas ta üldse enam imestab?
Kas ta mõtleb,
mis on saanud vennast?
Ja et valgus silmi pimestab?
Kuidas saame oma vaatenurgast
näha täiust?
Nürinurga alt? Anna andeks!
Oma hingenurgast ma ei valgustanud piisavalt.
Meil on kiire! Mõelgem selle peale!
Selles ilmas ei saa harjuda!
Teeme terveks oma murtud hääle!
Siis saab vaikselt APPI KARJUDA!
Vaimuelu- Juhan Viiding
Haa- see on tabav luuletus praeguseks.
sellega meenub kui ma ei leidnud õigel ajal kadunud Brigitte Lundblade kasseti pealt Bahai 19.PP vaimse osa jaoks pala mis ta soovis et ma makis mängiks
aga mul oli valmis see luuletus yhe Jüri Lina luulelavastuse kasseti peal.
ja otseselt kurja tahtmata mängisin vist osade hämmastuseks ette. Ei ma ei vaadanud nende nägusid, aga seda nad ei oodanud vist. Juhan Viidingut Bahai pühakirjadele inspireeritud palade asemel :) pärast loeti sõnad peale, igaks juhuks ja Valguskiires ilmusid juhendused.
Vaimuelu
Mismoodi on su vaimu seis?
ei seisa nigu.
kas tõstab pead ta ükskord meis
kui väike tigu?
kas tõuseb ta kui päikene
kui lõpeb öö
ja olles suur või väikene
teeb vaimse töö?
Või läheb mustaks mure läbi
Nii et on tuhat aastat häbi
sellega meenub kui ma ei leidnud õigel ajal kadunud Brigitte Lundblade kasseti pealt Bahai 19.PP vaimse osa jaoks pala mis ta soovis et ma makis mängiks
aga mul oli valmis see luuletus yhe Jüri Lina luulelavastuse kasseti peal.
ja otseselt kurja tahtmata mängisin vist osade hämmastuseks ette. Ei ma ei vaadanud nende nägusid, aga seda nad ei oodanud vist. Juhan Viidingut Bahai pühakirjadele inspireeritud palade asemel :) pärast loeti sõnad peale, igaks juhuks ja Valguskiires ilmusid juhendused.
Vaimuelu
Mismoodi on su vaimu seis?
ei seisa nigu.
kas tõstab pead ta ükskord meis
kui väike tigu?
kas tõuseb ta kui päikene
kui lõpeb öö
ja olles suur või väikene
teeb vaimse töö?
Või läheb mustaks mure läbi
Nii et on tuhat aastat häbi
Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)
"Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives; Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't."
Bridge over troubled water
For all of my friends of both genders, old and new, i have had and have and will have in my life :)
i hope that i can be there for you, at least i try. Havent been always, but you know
where to find me... ill be around :)
When youre weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
Im on your side. when times get rough
And friends just cant be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
When youre down and out,
When youre on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
Ill take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
Im sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
i hope that i can be there for you, at least i try. Havent been always, but you know
where to find me... ill be around :)
When youre weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
Im on your side. when times get rough
And friends just cant be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
When youre down and out,
When youre on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
Ill take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
Im sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
august 15, 2009
Lastekodulastest-About orphans
Pole ise olnud, aga hinge lähevad sellised lood...
Ja teper ne sirota
I m no longer orphan,
its a story about girl who been left to orphange, gets to know about mom and wants revenge, she grows up being "difficult" child, but loves animals. she makes friends with girl, who later in life helps her to turn her life around, she becomes Christian, and she even forgives mother...
väikesed käed kirjutavad liivale
emake pai tule mulle järele
ma ootan nii väga sind
mis jaoks küll hülgasid mind
kas sa siis oma last
ei armastada saa
armastada ei saa..
mul ei ole oma tuba
enda juurde sa ei luba
kelle oma olen mina
kui mul sind ei ole
kas siis olen kõigi oma
lastekodus elan praegu
kuid ma tean et tuleb aeg mil
ema mind hellitab hoiab ja kallistab
ema koju mind vii..
öö otsa ma mõtlen millal tulla saad
haigeks kas jäid
või ehk teed ei leia sa
kes saab küll aidata mind
kes teab kus viibida võid
kas sa siis oma last
ei armastada saa
armastada ei saa..
mul ei ole oma tuba
enda juurde sa ei luba
kelle oma olen mina
kui mul sind ei ole
kas siis olen kõigi oma
lastekodus elan praegu
kuigi tean et tuleb aeg mil
ema mindhellitab hoiab ja kallistab
ema koju mind vii
miks on see nii
kas te võite ütelda
lapsi ei saa ju lille pähe kinkida
mis jaoks neid emad maha jätavad
mis jaoks need lapsed öösel nutavad
kas sa siis oma last
ei armastada saa
armastada ei saa
white label - köikide laps
Ja teper ne sirota
I m no longer orphan,
its a story about girl who been left to orphange, gets to know about mom and wants revenge, she grows up being "difficult" child, but loves animals. she makes friends with girl, who later in life helps her to turn her life around, she becomes Christian, and she even forgives mother...
väikesed käed kirjutavad liivale
emake pai tule mulle järele
ma ootan nii väga sind
mis jaoks küll hülgasid mind
kas sa siis oma last
ei armastada saa
armastada ei saa..
mul ei ole oma tuba
enda juurde sa ei luba
kelle oma olen mina
kui mul sind ei ole
kas siis olen kõigi oma
lastekodus elan praegu
kuid ma tean et tuleb aeg mil
ema mind hellitab hoiab ja kallistab
ema koju mind vii..
öö otsa ma mõtlen millal tulla saad
haigeks kas jäid
või ehk teed ei leia sa
kes saab küll aidata mind
kes teab kus viibida võid
kas sa siis oma last
ei armastada saa
armastada ei saa..
mul ei ole oma tuba
enda juurde sa ei luba
kelle oma olen mina
kui mul sind ei ole
kas siis olen kõigi oma
lastekodus elan praegu
kuigi tean et tuleb aeg mil
ema mindhellitab hoiab ja kallistab
ema koju mind vii
miks on see nii
kas te võite ütelda
lapsi ei saa ju lille pähe kinkida
mis jaoks neid emad maha jätavad
mis jaoks need lapsed öösel nutavad
kas sa siis oma last
ei armastada saa
armastada ei saa
white label - köikide laps
Whats the colour of my skin
Race
What is the color of my skin?
if I tell you
will that determine the person I am?
If so then maybe for today
I am pink, red, green, or gray.
I am for the most part the same as you
When I am sad then I am blue.
If I call you my sister or brother,
does that have to reflect a certain color?
Our covering is a gift from the Divine,
so are you mocking this gift of mine?
Instead of judging by what you see
why don't you try looking at the inner me,
if the color of my skin
determines the person I am,
then I am invisible to you
for I am who I am.
-Mea Leann
What is the color of my skin?
if I tell you
will that determine the person I am?
If so then maybe for today
I am pink, red, green, or gray.
I am for the most part the same as you
When I am sad then I am blue.
If I call you my sister or brother,
does that have to reflect a certain color?
Our covering is a gift from the Divine,
so are you mocking this gift of mine?
Instead of judging by what you see
why don't you try looking at the inner me,
if the color of my skin
determines the person I am,
then I am invisible to you
for I am who I am.
-Mea Leann
august 13, 2009
Angeeelika- isaga draakonil :)
Angeelika has been around for a last week in home and hopital and she is happy little girl, running around and playing hide and seek with her Dad ie me. oh youve just gotta see her.
youd fall in love with her cuteness, smile. way she palys hide and seek, way she manages to stand while walking backWARDS, SOMEtimes even running, like she would have eyes on her back :)
when i was trying to give her piece of sandwitch, she took it ate it and poked with food at her hand, one piece sandwhich . i asked ishe wanting to feed me :D she just pokes food at my food with her little hand and laughs :))
she is dear to me :) She ate more a bit, but still holds food at mouth
Lyrics to Isaga Draakonil by Dagö:
Tahan, et mu prillid pole seks, et peita tühje silmi
vaid et hoopis paremini valgust vaadata
kui mu tütar jälgib mind kui veidrat õppefilmi
hea kui päris kõik ei tuleks välja lõigata
Kauni aia leian kus soovida soove
laia aia ja viinamäe
alla majja saadab mind kuu öö poole
sängi laia uinun ja näen kui`s me sõidame
isaga draakonil
kroonid peast rebib tuul
me ei hooli, me kuningad ikkagi
pungil purjed me draakonil
me eebenist draakonil
täna tuju tal hea, saab veel suhkrut me käest
ja me naerame
kui me lendame
üle lainete
isaga draakonil
On õues igatsust ja on keskpärakondi
võib olla õnnelik või sappi lärmata
pea meeles poeg , kui valid endal ülikondi
nad vahel selga sulle võivad kärvata
youd fall in love with her cuteness, smile. way she palys hide and seek, way she manages to stand while walking backWARDS, SOMEtimes even running, like she would have eyes on her back :)
when i was trying to give her piece of sandwitch, she took it ate it and poked with food at her hand, one piece sandwhich . i asked ishe wanting to feed me :D she just pokes food at my food with her little hand and laughs :))
she is dear to me :) She ate more a bit, but still holds food at mouth
Lyrics to Isaga Draakonil by Dagö:
Tahan, et mu prillid pole seks, et peita tühje silmi
vaid et hoopis paremini valgust vaadata
kui mu tütar jälgib mind kui veidrat õppefilmi
hea kui päris kõik ei tuleks välja lõigata
Kauni aia leian kus soovida soove
laia aia ja viinamäe
alla majja saadab mind kuu öö poole
sängi laia uinun ja näen kui`s me sõidame
isaga draakonil
kroonid peast rebib tuul
me ei hooli, me kuningad ikkagi
pungil purjed me draakonil
me eebenist draakonil
täna tuju tal hea, saab veel suhkrut me käest
ja me naerame
kui me lendame
üle lainete
isaga draakonil
On õues igatsust ja on keskpärakondi
võib olla õnnelik või sappi lärmata
pea meeles poeg , kui valid endal ülikondi
nad vahel selga sulle võivad kärvata
august 12, 2009
IF by R. Kipling
If
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
Loooking for....
Im confused a bit. Thing is what should i do? I kinda started to like life i had previous 2 years, minus bad stuff, bad emotions. Doing what i want, well doing almost what i want, that is. Some of family thought that i was doing too much my ex-s bidding, well i was at somethings. But generally, i was doing what i wanted.
i meaan every day life. I could do always more, learn something new, break routine, sing , write etc
Thing is that now that im out of relationship, i do also what i want. Confusing...ok
HERE is the thing, After Viljandi Folk i have felt that i want to reconnect with my faith people and faith. Me rational guy...well i guess one ist that rational always..
Do i have to be? No...If i want to be religious again, so be it.
of course there are questions, but there is clear wish to reconnect. I guess i have to make up my mind soon. I could out of comfort continue as i am, keeping it inner thing, minding my own business, doing still what i want like last two years or gradually come to spotlight...by returning fully....to the rivers of belief.
with all that entails. that means standing out on b-days etc. but if i want to go that way, and there is wish, there ignoring and stopping it is self-limiting too..
Mind over matter? Why there is such split between heart and mind at the times?
though i like the puzzles and to be human too
i meaan every day life. I could do always more, learn something new, break routine, sing , write etc
Thing is that now that im out of relationship, i do also what i want. Confusing...ok
HERE is the thing, After Viljandi Folk i have felt that i want to reconnect with my faith people and faith. Me rational guy...well i guess one ist that rational always..
Do i have to be? No...If i want to be religious again, so be it.
of course there are questions, but there is clear wish to reconnect. I guess i have to make up my mind soon. I could out of comfort continue as i am, keeping it inner thing, minding my own business, doing still what i want like last two years or gradually come to spotlight...by returning fully....to the rivers of belief.
with all that entails. that means standing out on b-days etc. but if i want to go that way, and there is wish, there ignoring and stopping it is self-limiting too..
Mind over matter? Why there is such split between heart and mind at the times?
though i like the puzzles and to be human too
august 04, 2009
august 03, 2009
Kamikaze Good Circle
We went to have a Night Cap(Nabs Idea) after Asian food and stroll and ended up to go to Kamikaze
I need to try socialize more, i felt im not adequate enough to describe people compared to Dan(really, my literalistic eloquence is ok, but i could do more) or others, its like you think you cam express well, because you write, but then when you go to deliver your piece orally, you may choke or stumble, unless youre good at talking.
I need to try socialize more, i felt im not adequate enough to describe people compared to Dan(really, my literalistic eloquence is ok, but i could do more) or others, its like you think you cam express well, because you write, but then when you go to deliver your piece orally, you may choke or stumble, unless youre good at talking.
Dead meat
Dead meat of derailed train
or how I took train to home :)
wen trough Saku-Rapla-Lelle-Tootsi-Tori then Pärnu
it was scary bit, it was rocking and when it was at higher tempo i was wondering that if somebody threw a bomb, id be dead meat :D and train derailed
but it was different , why take busses all the time?
i liked scenery, and i saw estonia outside my usual trajector
i think its worth of repeat
until a dead meat hahaha
or how I took train to home :)
wen trough Saku-Rapla-Lelle-Tootsi-Tori then Pärnu
it was scary bit, it was rocking and when it was at higher tempo i was wondering that if somebody threw a bomb, id be dead meat :D and train derailed
but it was different , why take busses all the time?
i liked scenery, and i saw estonia outside my usual trajector
i think its worth of repeat
until a dead meat hahaha
A marriage for a day, where you come from or Khal's Funny day moments
Today
Morning started, when i woke up at Loode house and there it was, odd thing, black top laying across at floor near toilet near my door. It was female clothing. It turned out to be with holes. or so it looked like hehe, i thought myself, i didnt see it last night. i jokingly thought what others may think finding this near my door hehe. Later Helmi told me that they joked that maybe i brought somebody with me hehe. knowing my history hehe..Rita said its sport bra and top?? later it came out it one of their guests cloth, it fell out of somewhere when they arrived that night. mystery solved
I approach lookout platform and watch at old town, sitting first , waiting looooots
of tourists to clear a view. So iget there, i hear some young men aproaching people
asking "Do you want to experience what its to be married for a day?" :D
youll get cerificate, ring etc. hehe
and the later did kissing part and shouted gorko.
2nd
i leave platform head towards Cathedral i meet dark guy standing at corner around finnish embassy. he asks me, where you come from...i said ´from there... ..he said no no...you mean from bacground? yeah he said. and he was gloomy bit, i said i live in Estonia, he said nägemist ...like what....go figure wierd...i thought whatever...
walked on
Morning started, when i woke up at Loode house and there it was, odd thing, black top laying across at floor near toilet near my door. It was female clothing. It turned out to be with holes. or so it looked like hehe, i thought myself, i didnt see it last night. i jokingly thought what others may think finding this near my door hehe. Later Helmi told me that they joked that maybe i brought somebody with me hehe. knowing my history hehe..Rita said its sport bra and top?? later it came out it one of their guests cloth, it fell out of somewhere when they arrived that night. mystery solved
I approach lookout platform and watch at old town, sitting first , waiting looooots
of tourists to clear a view. So iget there, i hear some young men aproaching people
asking "Do you want to experience what its to be married for a day?" :D
youll get cerificate, ring etc. hehe
and the later did kissing part and shouted gorko.
2nd
i leave platform head towards Cathedral i meet dark guy standing at corner around finnish embassy. he asks me, where you come from...i said ´from there... ..he said no no...you mean from bacground? yeah he said. and he was gloomy bit, i said i live in Estonia, he said nägemist ...like what....go figure wierd...i thought whatever...
walked on
august 01, 2009
From album Twelve Shots On The Rocks '03
From album Twelve Shots On The Rocks '03
In the real dark night of the soul
It's always 3 a.m.
It's always darkest before the dawn
It never dawned on me
At my weakest I'm pretending to be strong
Sometimes the demons are too hard to control
(Chorus) In my darkest moment
Something takes me over makes me turn a cold shoulder
In my darkest moment
I need a revalation, divine illumination to come my way
Just when I thought I was me It just wasn't me t-talkin'
And the last one that I never wanna hurt
Stood right in my way
Hating is easy and loving takes real character
Love ain't in fashion in this hard stone cold hearted world
Chorus
(The pain, the grief, the agony...)
Chorus
Let some light come my way...
In the real dark night of the soul
It's always 3 a.m.
It's always darkest before the dawn
It never dawned on me
At my weakest I'm pretending to be strong
Sometimes the demons are too hard to control
(Chorus) In my darkest moment
Something takes me over makes me turn a cold shoulder
In my darkest moment
I need a revalation, divine illumination to come my way
Just when I thought I was me It just wasn't me t-talkin'
And the last one that I never wanna hurt
Stood right in my way
Hating is easy and loving takes real character
Love ain't in fashion in this hard stone cold hearted world
Chorus
(The pain, the grief, the agony...)
Chorus
Let some light come my way...
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