oktoober 26, 2010
Vanilla Ninja - Spirit Of The Dawn
I remember the times when I was a child
And the world was full of grace
The wind would whisper of miracles
And a secret magic place
But the sun went down and the first night fell
Like a shadow upon my life
And though all the colours slowly turned to grey
I never lost my faith
In the spirit of the dawn
In the twilight of your soul
There's a voice that guides me home
To the spirit of the dawn
For all the pain in my heart
All the bruises and scars
I'll become the one I was
In the spirit of the dawn
And here I'm wandering through a city of sin
With the creatures of the night
And we shared the suffering and the tears
In this neverending fight
And in a world of broken promises
With a sky that's cracked and thorned
We'll die just to be reborn
In the spirit of the dawn
In the twilight of your soul
There's a voice that guides me home
In the spirit of the dawn
For all the pain in my heart
All the bruises and scars
I'll become the one I was
In the spirit of the dawn
And I will never lose my faith
In the truth behind my prayers
I keep searching for the desert rain
Cause I know that it will wash away my pain
oktoober 25, 2010
Mama Africa
this is my poetic outcome on the issue of docs i saw on mass rape in congo and also on general theme what africans have gone through through eyes of mine, i know its mostly docs and movies like Hotel Rwanda, and also what ive read on Rwandan genocide, Darfur Genocide, Congos wars and mass rapes and killings. Ive lived in Africa, though in North, as small boy, but my heart goes out for people who suffer in war, ive grown up in tough enviroment such as SU and ive been in wartime Lebanon. i dont like war, ive heard it, and it still echoes in me, those sounds that i heard when i was boy..
PS(! 19.07.2012)
PS!This poem ending is Bahai motivated, because at the time Bahai was part of my life, in a way it still is, but not totally. And i am sure for many people it would be still beacon of hope in that kind of situations. so poem stays as it is :) No rewriting of my personal poem history. poem interpretation is also very individual I think, if you leave aside Bahai holy place picture, then ending is Christ referenced, Christians can take it one way and Bahais other way, and maybe people with neither identities can focus on general HOPE( dum spiro spero- till i breathe i hope). Interestingly enough HOPE is also charity organization here :)
oktoober 23, 2010
Little things coming true..unbelievable..hand of God?
Heyyyyyyyyyyy......
its me again. One tiny little incident made me speechless and happy at the same time. I intended to ask for some advance payment either this day or next week, because i need to pay for k-garten and live throughcount have next week, and numbers in my account go down and down as month drags it towards the end. So i was working working resting working resting working until afternoon i happened to go to the corridor and our firm's accountant passed me and sayd: I made transfer of money to you...I was like...Thanks( what..i havent asked for?) I didnt specially ask, and forgot to ask that day and nor before that and , i do have mini vacation next week, but since it was payed for already in summer, it cant be that. and They choose to transfer all pay money on day i wanted to ask only some for advance :) Whats going on? i was quite taken back for a while. Like are they reading my mind? Imagine if things and small things like having money, and what i havent specifically asked for, come true, then what else can also can come true? Dum spiro spero, Friends..:)))))))))))))))))))))))). While I breathe, I hope....You have no Idea, how literal that is. I came to this close to not breathing on evening of 8th because of own stupidity( never eat on the hurry) But thank God, i can breathe, and live and hope, see beloved people( kid, parents, family, friends, bahais) and do things etc. What more imortant this means new phase in rebirth! and that tiny episode today.... I feel that im converted for good! :) Now let us if we can get some bigger dreams and things to come true...:)
its me again. One tiny little incident made me speechless and happy at the same time. I intended to ask for some advance payment either this day or next week, because i need to pay for k-garten and live throughcount have next week, and numbers in my account go down and down as month drags it towards the end. So i was working working resting working resting working until afternoon i happened to go to the corridor and our firm's accountant passed me and sayd: I made transfer of money to you...I was like...Thanks( what..i havent asked for?) I didnt specially ask, and forgot to ask that day and nor before that and , i do have mini vacation next week, but since it was payed for already in summer, it cant be that. and They choose to transfer all pay money on day i wanted to ask only some for advance :) Whats going on? i was quite taken back for a while. Like are they reading my mind? Imagine if things and small things like having money, and what i havent specifically asked for, come true, then what else can also can come true? Dum spiro spero, Friends..:)))))))))))))))))))))))). While I breathe, I hope....You have no Idea, how literal that is. I came to this close to not breathing on evening of 8th because of own stupidity( never eat on the hurry) But thank God, i can breathe, and live and hope, see beloved people( kid, parents, family, friends, bahais) and do things etc. What more imortant this means new phase in rebirth! and that tiny episode today.... I feel that im converted for good! :) Now let us if we can get some bigger dreams and things to come true...:)
oktoober 21, 2010
oktoober 20, 2010
at Birthday of Bab- on prayer
Worship thou God in such wise that if thy worship lead thee to the fire, no alteration in
thine adoration would be produced, and so likewise if thy recompense should be
paradise. Thus and thus alone should be the worship which befitteth the one True
God. Shouldst thou worship Him because of fear, this would be unseemly in the
sanctified Court of His presence, and could not be regarded as an act by thee dedicated
to the Oneness of His Being. Or if thy gaze should be on paradise, and thou shouldst
worship Him while cherishing such a hope, thou wouldst make Godʹs creation a
partner with Him, notwithstanding the fact that paradise is desired by men.
(ʺSelections from the Writings of the Babʺ pp. 77‐78))
thine adoration would be produced, and so likewise if thy recompense should be
paradise. Thus and thus alone should be the worship which befitteth the one True
God. Shouldst thou worship Him because of fear, this would be unseemly in the
sanctified Court of His presence, and could not be regarded as an act by thee dedicated
to the Oneness of His Being. Or if thy gaze should be on paradise, and thou shouldst
worship Him while cherishing such a hope, thou wouldst make Godʹs creation a
partner with Him, notwithstanding the fact that paradise is desired by men.
(ʺSelections from the Writings of the Babʺ pp. 77‐78))
From Bahaiwritings...
To pray – a skill to de
http://bahaiwritings.files.wordpress.com/2010/10/compilation-on-prayer1.pdf
http://bahaiwritings.wordpress.com/2010/10/19/prayer-a-skill-to-develop/
We can read in the Writings that prayers are like conversations with God. Conversation is something one can work at and become better at. So the question is, can one become better at praying? Can one improve ones “conversation” with God? Is prayer a “skill” that one can become better at? I would like to think so. Here is a compilation on prayer from the Bahai Writings I put together that hopefully can be of use. The topics in this compilation are;
•Prayer as conversation
•Nearness to God
•Our mindset when praying
•Whom to pray to
•Effects of prayer
Here is the compilation. Compilation on Prayer
http://bahaiwritings.files.wordpress.com/2010/10/compilation-on-prayer1.pdf
http://bahaiwritings.wordpress.com/2010/10/19/prayer-a-skill-to-develop/
oktoober 19, 2010
Back to Rivers of Belief or 15 years of Ilm
Hello dear brothers and sisters,
I know ya might be more concerned with your own lives, but i feel that i must share this with you.
The happy news is that it occured to me this Friday, that today is my 15th month of Ilm :)
That's Right, my first attended Feast ever was on October 16( or maybe day before or day later)
1995 :) 15 years of seeing different faces ie you around too. Ya might ask, how do i Know?
Well, prepare the time capsule and set the date on year 1995: I first met first bahai ever in Early months of 95, and his name
was Sol(SUN), dear Sol Morey. I was taking part of Red Cross Youth Group activites when met him in English club he conducted. I didnt know anything about his Bahai bacground, minus the fact that he had to be late to the Club to break fast in the month of Fasting. At that time I knew that so do folks i was familiar with, Muslims. I hadnt met any Bahai by my knowledge of course, up to that point.
Well, I did saw half of Interview with Kevin Wilson and his wife( who were pioneering in my lovely town before) by Mark Soosaar, but that doesnt count, since i dont remember bahai mentioned there and i learned of that later, that i saw the Kevin Wilson and the Family. Anyway, i got aquinted with lots of bahais in April 95. Though on 1st of April, in Aprils Fools Party at Morey's house they didnt come foward with that :) My First fireside was on some weeks later as I have copy of Esselmonts BaNE signed with date around that time. I really was attracted to hospitality and friendliness of Sol and Nayyan Morey so i kept visting them and events, well minus some time in summer due to graduation, trying to get into universities etc. And I felt that Faith makes sense to me and thats what ive always seen so, that there is one source for all major religions and Bahai is like that last missing puzzle piece that needs to be there to complete the picture and in this time religion.
I didnt declare until beginning of October or maybe end of September. All i know that it was around that time and it gotta be Friday( Firesides day then at Moreys) before october the 7th. Because according to one newsletter i have from the Teaching Comittee of Estonian Baha'is they mention among many happy joins( 9) there were 2 from Pärnu( one of them one certain young man ;) that they were happy to talk about. Guess when this timeframe starts? Ridvan time 1995, April. And what made my then to be future brothers and sisters happy was that there was prayer campaign then which aim was to turn many thirsty souls to the Baha'u'llah, says that newsletter in kirillitsa :) and at least some responded :) But you know, Friends, i didnt have a plan initially to become the one :)
I dont remember much from the day of conversion, other than it was Fireside and i acted as translator between Sol and Nayyan and man called Valdo( he became bahai too, though he has left this mortal realm some time ago). i vaguely remember there was something to do with question of how one becomes bahai or declaration cards. All i know that since it was that easy( no rituals, minus the signing of the card haha) and that i had taken in lots of dozes of love bombs :)(but better those, than those that rocked Estonian towns in wild 90ies) and since all that made sense to me, i become the one and that other man too. :) So i signed that being quite green to the Bahai, had that butterfly feeling, floating in air, that its great and nobody would object :) But like i would have done that anyway ;) ie ask other people on that moment. Who do you need to ask, if you know for sure that youre in any type of love! So i started on my journey and coming back to the Feast of Ilm, you know its so significant that exactly that month is start of my active bahai involvment. Knowldege has been my deepest passions. Was, is and will be forevermore. What is curious enough is i only know that it must have been month of Ilm, because before the LSA of Pärnu was elected, for short time Sol used to write reciepts for recieved donations at the Feasts and ive kept those i got in an Envelope, the first one is signed as for month of Ilm :)
If i remember correctly LSA of Pärnu was elected and formed bit later, April 1996
What followed can be described with some sentences from Welcoming letter of 24.oct.95 from Regional Spiritual Assembly of Bahais of Baltic States where our dear Foad( Heart) who served as Secretary wrote following words that are pretty timeless:
"Becoming a Baha'i is just the beginning of an eternal (Khaledoun :)))) journey towards spiritual perfection. With help of Holy Words of God, His grace, our prayers, our Institutions, our Community and our Baha'i friends, we gradually go foward and realise the ideals of Baha'u'llah in our lives. Looking at the situation in the world, outside the Baha'i Community, we realise this process will not be easy but higly rewarding" Looking back, its been quite a journey and i must say it hasnt been always easy one indeed. and there was a time when i wasnt striving towards that direction
But here i am, at this day, at this milestone, 15 years behind me, like a teenager who has reached symbolic age of maturity. last many years ive been either away or on crossroads. or walking in shallow waters of great ocean, right on the beach since last summer. Since last summer ive felt this drive for comeback, but ive had some issues to sort out. Today i have decided. I want no longer be person who just goes to garage and expects to become a car :))))))) It time to go to spiritual car factory again and fix the car. and whats the use of automobile, if it is mobile ie on road? Ive decided that i can try to find solutions and answers to my thelogical and philosophical questions while on the journey.
I have wanted for some time to ask you if i can do anything to contribute to Community work? I have several skills, hobbies and ideas that can be put in use. and even if i have kid now, im sure time can be found that i can do thing or two. or take the kid in some cases with me. if possible do involve me. I give you some suggestions: anything to do with cooking-baking, kidz, study circles, writing, translating, dealing with persons with disabilities, listening, issues that need paitience and peacemaking, poetry, history, religions, organizing and coordinating for start. Let me know, and i shall see what will work out.
And Id be grateful to get Anna's Presentaton in estonian and or English in any form possible. i would of curse need to Practice it first, since its been a while, maybe im still little rusty :P but i guess i can ask pärnu folks at the feast today. oh, and i m missing Ruhi 4 from my portfolio, if anybody anytime does that let me know, ill see first if in Pärnu, secon option would be Tallinn.
What else...youth stuff, maybe we could kick off something like in Talinn, devotional and cinema or somthing else, i do have some friends, ive told one about Parviz weekend and that its faith related. i have a feeling that i could introduce him little more, but ill ask him first. but movie night is an idea, maybe sometimes some youth( ex Nabil, Dan, A, Tiina etc) can come over and we can have spiritual and fun event. Pärnu is lovely town at any time of the year :) I can be your voluntary Ivan Sussanin the guide
,but one that doesnt lead you astray :). I also have great friend in Viljandi, he is quite familiar with bahais, he was in bahai and has been away, hanging around in one church, but he's friendly and talkative, and i think he wouldnt mind seeing some bahais again
, he knows some people in Cultural sector in Viljandi. And Viljandi is also great town to go! Does anybody know,in what state Narva is? I havent been there for ages...maybe we should pay them a visit some time, do something. I know Harjumaa is priority cluster, but let me know is there any room or how practical that would be to do something youthwise or otherwise elsewhere. would be great to get some more youth, next to young at heart and eternal youth..Also, i wondered is ther any room for events that could involve youths from baltics. doesnt have to be formal but something that builds ties and is co-opeational or study part and fun part, like we had in Riga 7 years ago in dec-january? ok...im now off to bed..
Hope you had great feast of Ilm or if you still havent have a great Feast of Ilm!
let me know where we can cooperate,pl, its been pleasure and honour to be around you last 15 years See you around for at least next 40- eternity years :) Inshallah, of course :D
Something i read recently....
Magnificat by Fernando Pessoa and music by John Sebastian Bach-enjoy!
PS! I know im not perfect still, but if you all mentally, spiritually or any way support me, then we can move the mountains.
PS! if any doubt, then rememeber that i was person who DID go back to Pärnu upon my word and after asking advice from NSA in year 2003 :) and i feel confident enough to not make these letters here hollow, otherwise ill be Fool on the Hill. :)
PS! those not in Estonia now, i hope you didnt find too left out at the end :) i just felt that i had to include you to share the story
I know ya might be more concerned with your own lives, but i feel that i must share this with you.
The happy news is that it occured to me this Friday, that today is my 15th month of Ilm :)
That's Right, my first attended Feast ever was on October 16( or maybe day before or day later)
1995 :) 15 years of seeing different faces ie you around too. Ya might ask, how do i Know?
Well, prepare the time capsule and set the date on year 1995: I first met first bahai ever in Early months of 95, and his name
was Sol(SUN), dear Sol Morey. I was taking part of Red Cross Youth Group activites when met him in English club he conducted. I didnt know anything about his Bahai bacground, minus the fact that he had to be late to the Club to break fast in the month of Fasting. At that time I knew that so do folks i was familiar with, Muslims. I hadnt met any Bahai by my knowledge of course, up to that point.
Well, I did saw half of Interview with Kevin Wilson and his wife( who were pioneering in my lovely town before) by Mark Soosaar, but that doesnt count, since i dont remember bahai mentioned there and i learned of that later, that i saw the Kevin Wilson and the Family. Anyway, i got aquinted with lots of bahais in April 95. Though on 1st of April, in Aprils Fools Party at Morey's house they didnt come foward with that :) My First fireside was on some weeks later as I have copy of Esselmonts BaNE signed with date around that time. I really was attracted to hospitality and friendliness of Sol and Nayyan Morey so i kept visting them and events, well minus some time in summer due to graduation, trying to get into universities etc. And I felt that Faith makes sense to me and thats what ive always seen so, that there is one source for all major religions and Bahai is like that last missing puzzle piece that needs to be there to complete the picture and in this time religion.
I didnt declare until beginning of October or maybe end of September. All i know that it was around that time and it gotta be Friday( Firesides day then at Moreys) before october the 7th. Because according to one newsletter i have from the Teaching Comittee of Estonian Baha'is they mention among many happy joins( 9) there were 2 from Pärnu( one of them one certain young man ;) that they were happy to talk about. Guess when this timeframe starts? Ridvan time 1995, April. And what made my then to be future brothers and sisters happy was that there was prayer campaign then which aim was to turn many thirsty souls to the Baha'u'llah, says that newsletter in kirillitsa :) and at least some responded :) But you know, Friends, i didnt have a plan initially to become the one :)
I dont remember much from the day of conversion, other than it was Fireside and i acted as translator between Sol and Nayyan and man called Valdo( he became bahai too, though he has left this mortal realm some time ago). i vaguely remember there was something to do with question of how one becomes bahai or declaration cards. All i know that since it was that easy( no rituals, minus the signing of the card haha) and that i had taken in lots of dozes of love bombs :)(but better those, than those that rocked Estonian towns in wild 90ies) and since all that made sense to me, i become the one and that other man too. :) So i signed that being quite green to the Bahai, had that butterfly feeling, floating in air, that its great and nobody would object :) But like i would have done that anyway ;) ie ask other people on that moment. Who do you need to ask, if you know for sure that youre in any type of love! So i started on my journey and coming back to the Feast of Ilm, you know its so significant that exactly that month is start of my active bahai involvment. Knowldege has been my deepest passions. Was, is and will be forevermore. What is curious enough is i only know that it must have been month of Ilm, because before the LSA of Pärnu was elected, for short time Sol used to write reciepts for recieved donations at the Feasts and ive kept those i got in an Envelope, the first one is signed as for month of Ilm :)
If i remember correctly LSA of Pärnu was elected and formed bit later, April 1996
What followed can be described with some sentences from Welcoming letter of 24.oct.95 from Regional Spiritual Assembly of Bahais of Baltic States where our dear Foad( Heart) who served as Secretary wrote following words that are pretty timeless:
"Becoming a Baha'i is just the beginning of an eternal (Khaledoun :)))) journey towards spiritual perfection. With help of Holy Words of God, His grace, our prayers, our Institutions, our Community and our Baha'i friends, we gradually go foward and realise the ideals of Baha'u'llah in our lives. Looking at the situation in the world, outside the Baha'i Community, we realise this process will not be easy but higly rewarding" Looking back, its been quite a journey and i must say it hasnt been always easy one indeed. and there was a time when i wasnt striving towards that direction
But here i am, at this day, at this milestone, 15 years behind me, like a teenager who has reached symbolic age of maturity. last many years ive been either away or on crossroads. or walking in shallow waters of great ocean, right on the beach since last summer. Since last summer ive felt this drive for comeback, but ive had some issues to sort out. Today i have decided. I want no longer be person who just goes to garage and expects to become a car :))))))) It time to go to spiritual car factory again and fix the car. and whats the use of automobile, if it is mobile ie on road? Ive decided that i can try to find solutions and answers to my thelogical and philosophical questions while on the journey.
I have wanted for some time to ask you if i can do anything to contribute to Community work? I have several skills, hobbies and ideas that can be put in use. and even if i have kid now, im sure time can be found that i can do thing or two. or take the kid in some cases with me. if possible do involve me. I give you some suggestions: anything to do with cooking-baking, kidz, study circles, writing, translating, dealing with persons with disabilities, listening, issues that need paitience and peacemaking, poetry, history, religions, organizing and coordinating for start. Let me know, and i shall see what will work out.
And Id be grateful to get Anna's Presentaton in estonian and or English in any form possible. i would of curse need to Practice it first, since its been a while, maybe im still little rusty :P but i guess i can ask pärnu folks at the feast today. oh, and i m missing Ruhi 4 from my portfolio, if anybody anytime does that let me know, ill see first if in Pärnu, secon option would be Tallinn.
What else...youth stuff, maybe we could kick off something like in Talinn, devotional and cinema or somthing else, i do have some friends, ive told one about Parviz weekend and that its faith related. i have a feeling that i could introduce him little more, but ill ask him first. but movie night is an idea, maybe sometimes some youth( ex Nabil, Dan, A, Tiina etc) can come over and we can have spiritual and fun event. Pärnu is lovely town at any time of the year :) I can be your voluntary Ivan Sussanin the guide
,but one that doesnt lead you astray :). I also have great friend in Viljandi, he is quite familiar with bahais, he was in bahai and has been away, hanging around in one church, but he's friendly and talkative, and i think he wouldnt mind seeing some bahais again
, he knows some people in Cultural sector in Viljandi. And Viljandi is also great town to go! Does anybody know,in what state Narva is? I havent been there for ages...maybe we should pay them a visit some time, do something. I know Harjumaa is priority cluster, but let me know is there any room or how practical that would be to do something youthwise or otherwise elsewhere. would be great to get some more youth, next to young at heart and eternal youth..Also, i wondered is ther any room for events that could involve youths from baltics. doesnt have to be formal but something that builds ties and is co-opeational or study part and fun part, like we had in Riga 7 years ago in dec-january? ok...im now off to bed..
Hope you had great feast of Ilm or if you still havent have a great Feast of Ilm!
let me know where we can cooperate,pl, its been pleasure and honour to be around you last 15 years See you around for at least next 40- eternity years :) Inshallah, of course :D
Something i read recently....
Magnificat by Fernando Pessoa and music by John Sebastian Bach-enjoy!
PS! I know im not perfect still, but if you all mentally, spiritually or any way support me, then we can move the mountains.
PS! if any doubt, then rememeber that i was person who DID go back to Pärnu upon my word and after asking advice from NSA in year 2003 :) and i feel confident enough to not make these letters here hollow, otherwise ill be Fool on the Hill. :)
PS! those not in Estonia now, i hope you didnt find too left out at the end :) i just felt that i had to include you to share the story
Dum Spiro Spero and Lenna's signature!
I literally have new breathe in life, and i am soooo thankful that i came out on thar chocking insident in 8th of october, never ever cram the leftovers of rhyebread burger that has porkfillet in it and that after washing mouth with Plax water( after you wash your teeth)! I couldnt breathe well for some 20 minutes, and stated to vomit it out, and I was alone, and later the blood also came, but luckily and thank God, i started to breathe better even if my sore throat was still there next day. I was red in face like tomato. and there was not much missing than i wouldnt have seen my Lovely little Angel, my parents, my family, my friends, the bahais, ever with my mortal eyes anymore. And I wouldnt have seen Lenna in Concert and i couldnt have met her in close range and asked her autogramm and thanked her for her Music and i couldnt have been walk away being happy and like in lovestruck emotion that wow that I did it and Met her...unbelivable. and i couldnt before that met Basil, who among other things mention this latin sentence: Dum Spiro Spero :) While i breathe i hope :) My new moto..:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I will start to do things that i havent done for a while. Reconnect :) Living the Life :) Focus on important stuff. Be more than NORMAL :) Love, keep and cultivate friendships, laugh, study, read, feel, eat, breathe, pray. But not in naive way positive, but more mature i hope :) Inshallah. we shall what see will work out and what not :) and here comes Lenna's Signature
Congo soldiers explain why they rape
Unbelivably moronic...yikes
I think i will surely be feminist if i was to reborn in this world as woman...
SAAAAAAAAAAAAD!
oktoober 08, 2010
Queen-The Show Must Go On 2x
captures from Queen video Show must go on( with a stills of the video containg other known song of the band) on youtube and in my music libary echoing......
You know life is ironic, i havent gotten almost anywhere in this 4 letter thing called L###
not when i havent done anything about it, not when i have done little and... not when i try or maybe have overdone....and not Even this song is helping much to get things clearer...i guess there is thing called bad luck :D :P ;) so ironic...
PS! Stills happened to stop at those places, i did not specifically choose the spots.otherwise you would have seen flowing video :) But even those stops can describe me and my story in many ways. and i f you wonder why Freddie, its my artistic alter ego :) lots of metaphores there :) Enjoy the show :P, though my heart is true, dont forget that :)
im suggested to forget her, to live with much easier heart- iwonder if that is possible, should i declare my feelings nothing, to move on? or how ishould go about it, is really question? i ndont i will see, perhaps the time will show...
oh and i found one skin bump 2cm wide on my left leg 10 cm away from knee... i wonder i that cancer cell...
oktoober 03, 2010
Ei saa mitte vaiki olla
Oli see reede õhtu ja seal ma istusin, Kanuti Gildi hämaras saalis yht tantsuetendust vaatates. Laval koreograafia osakonna tantsuteater Tee Kuubis, muusikuteks jazzmuusikud Jaak Sooäär, Raul Vaigla ja Tanel Ruben. Ja siis korraga hakkab sellel samal laval kus ma nägin sind enne helisema yks meloodia, yks tuttav meloodia, mis on mulle hinge kylge kasvanud. Ei saa mitte vaiki olla...mis iganes tulevik toob, tea et ma mõtlen sinu peale iga päev. Ma muidugi ei tea kas sa seda kuulma juhtud aga kui juhtud, siis te las see lugu heliseda sulle.
Siiri Sisakil on ka yks super versioon sellest loost :)
Siiri Sisakil on ka yks super versioon sellest loost :)
oktoober 02, 2010
culture trips
If you have to story of your life, what it would tell about you? Second weekend of culture, last sat was Ugala&Rinne, today Kanuti Gild&TU dances, reading Oksanen's Purge and Pessoa's Poems and Xenophobes guide to Estonians :D. All but Pessoa has common facet: Lives in SU and culture ans society :) Painful, funny, absurd, human yet still there after 91. In Tallinn seeing Kiddo and Baba :) Saw Nab and Miss T also :)3
Today Tallinn TU T
Im in my Dad's flat, Kiddo and him sleep peacefully. I havent gone yet.
Im thinking about my life, the family, about you. I cant help i simply like you, even if its maybe or surely not meant to be. it was great to see you, even if there wasnt much of conversation. I hope that you at least liked the flowers, and didnt think oh what that guy is doing again. but then again i dont blame you if you dont like and did thought so. thing that bugs me is that im not sure of what exactly happened and didnt happen in spring. if only i could know for sure....
Im thinking about my life, the family, about you. I cant help i simply like you, even if its maybe or surely not meant to be. it was great to see you, even if there wasnt much of conversation. I hope that you at least liked the flowers, and didnt think oh what that guy is doing again. but then again i dont blame you if you dont like and did thought so. thing that bugs me is that im not sure of what exactly happened and didnt happen in spring. if only i could know for sure....
Pessoa
TO FEEL everything in every way,
To hold all opinions,
To be sincere contradicting oneself every minute,
To annoy oneself with absolute open-mindedness,
And to love things just like God.
http://poemsoffernandopessoa.blogspot.com/
To hold all opinions,
To be sincere contradicting oneself every minute,
To annoy oneself with absolute open-mindedness,
And to love things just like God.
http://poemsoffernandopessoa.blogspot.com/
september 29, 2010
juuli 08, 2010
Unelaul kõigile, kes homme tööle lähevad
Isa tuleb töölt ta pühib jalad puhtaks porist, vaatab telekat ja läheb varsti magama
kuid see kohustus on pori tema hingel,see ei ole uni, see on minu elu, ütleb ta
ja elust pole nõnda lihtne ärgata
See on unelaul kõigile, kes homme tööle lähevad
ja näevad oma unistusi unes
Isa ostis pojal uue läpaka – ta tapab zombisid nüüd uhiuue relvaga
ja isa ütleb „Nüüd hakkama pead õppima, sest ma ei taha sinu elu kinni pappida!“
kuid poiss ei hakka üldse lolli mängima, ta läheb parem Viru keskusesse hängima
See on unelaul kõigile, kes homme kooli lähevad
ja näevad oma kohustusi unes
mõni mees peab sõitma väga suure bemmiga, ainult siis ta saab rahulikult elada
ja mõni naine peab pediküüri tegema, siis ta saab rahulikult elada
ja mõni mees peab ikka pedenalju tegema, siis ta saabki rahulikult elada
ja mõni mees peab tshikke ikka sebima ja reedel purjus peaga nalja rebima
ja mõni memm peab oma muredesse murduma, siis ta saab rahulikult elada
ja mõni taat peab tablette ikka neelama ja jumala eest , ma ei hakka teda keelama!
Mõni tüdruk peab suitsu ikka tegema, siis ta saab rahulikult elada
ja mõni naine peab teisi taga rääkima, siis ta saab rahulikult elada
ja mõni paps peab oma laste peale röökima, siis ta saab rahulikult elada
ja mõni mees peab regulaarselt surfama, siis ta saabki rahulikult elada
ja mõni mees peab tshellot ikka mängima ja mitte ainult, vaid palja ülakehaga
kuid mõni mees peab lihtsalt rahulikult elama ja siis ta saabki rahulikult elada
Ideaalsed inimesed ideaalses linnas muretsesid kodu pangalaenuga
nüüd on 30 järgmist aastat väga eriliselt hinnas ja siis nad saavad rahulikult elada
See on unelaul kõigile, kes elu võlgu elavad
ja näevad oma pangalaenu unes
See on unelaul – see on elu laul
see on ilus laul – see on valus laul
see on naljalaul – see on tõsilaul
see on sinu laul ja ka minu laul
See on unelaul kõigile , kes homme tööle lähevad
ja näevad oma unistusi ainult unes.
juuni 20, 2010
juuni 19, 2010
aprill 05, 2010
there is light that never goes out
this song speaks to me at times you know awareness of death, friendship and hope and being on own in this world. Nab introduced me to The Smiths and my link with that song would be with Nabster, whatever the future will bring. Ilove this chorus...depressing and happy at same time...
thanks for posting this, Brittster :)
aprill 03, 2010
Rein Veidemann: NO99 Hamleti dilemma - Arvamus - Postimees.ee
Rein Veidemann: NO99 Hamleti dilemma - Arvamus - Postimees.ee
See on kahe teatri, otsesõnalisusse, lava ja saali piire tühistava NO99 ning oma mängudest pöördesse sattunud Eesti poliitilise establishment’i kahevõi(s)tlus. Hamlet silmitsi Claudiusega.
See on kahe teatri, otsesõnalisusse, lava ja saali piire tühistava NO99 ning oma mängudest pöördesse sattunud Eesti poliitilise establishment’i kahevõi(s)tlus. Hamlet silmitsi Claudiusega.
märts 23, 2010
"Pearl" of Chainletters
or
Another Rumor BUSTED...Death of one the Danish Cartoonists SO NOT TRUE...this is what i got today in my mailbox
Can you believe i got this CHAINLETTER in my mailbox today, somehow this topic pops up every now and then????
...anyone with better arabic skills let me know what it says Shame on me, aiaiai, i have to learn arabic Fast
anyways the "pearl" of the day:
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------الرجل الذي رسم الكاريكاتير على الرسول مات محروق والدنمارك متكتمة الخبر ارجوك تنشر الخبر هدا لان في اخت من فلسطين شافت رؤية ان اللي هينشر الخبر هدا ربنا هيفرحة بعد اربع ساعات والله شخص اسمه محمد اقسم بالله انه راى الرسول في منامه وقال له بلغ الاسلام والمسلمين عني السلام فمن ينشرها خلال اربعة ايام فسوف يفرح فرحا شديدا ومن يتجاهلها فسوف يحزن حزنا شديدا ارسلها الي 15 شخص
____________________this is the danish cartoonist
if you are happy of his death just forward it pleeeeeeeeeeeeeez(u wont loose anything)
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Happy over somebody's death? NOT ME and I thought WTF and ran some search ON NET and drumrollls tadaaaaa.....it payed off, as my suspicions were confirmed... i found site accompanied by funny song Risky romance as parody of Lady Gaga's Bad Romance hehe
http://article.wn.com/view/2010/03/03/Blasphemous_Danish_Cartoonist_burnt_to_death/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_uFo8PzkvrE
anyway back to topic..this what site read....TITLED
Blasphemous Danish Cartoonist burnt to death? The Siasat Daily 2010-03-03
"The editor of the Danish newspaper 'Jyllands Posten' was burnt to death when a fire mysteriously broke out in his bedroom, a Saudi newspaper claims. According to the newspaper, the editor was sleeping in his bedroom when the fire ravaged his bedroom. He and his newspaper became controversial when it had published blasphemous... "
First they say CARTOONIST and then editor heh, which one then? AND Kurt Westergaard died in mysterious fire that i havent heard of whole March....SO NOT TRUE...or as he would probably say Hearsays about my death are overly exaggareted LOL
see:
http://www.siasat.com/english/news/blasphemous-danish-cartoonist-burnt-death
http://indianmuslims.in/so-the-danish-cartoonist-was-burnt-alive
Source of RUMOR: Saudi paper
MYSTERY SOLVED!
So here is exerpt from my reply to who sent me this
They should sum up my stance on whole thing:
3.Even if that story would have been real, to laugh or be happy at somebody's violent death is sign of heartlessness and bad taste and major drop of in respect in my eyes. Peoples' deaths are NOT FUN!
...though death is natural thing. you dont have to be overly sad becauze:
a) person lives on in your memories, or via DNA in children or
b) if one believes in afterlife, then death is just leaving body behind.
But its different to be happy and say "seee he got punished". it shows our bad side to be happy over somebody's death like that in my opinion.
4.You wouldnt have lost anything by not sending this on ;) too. But thanks making me wiser about another Rumor people so much want to believe...
5. There are 12 cartoonists, not 1, he didnt draw all of them, and several cartoons joke on various other people ie including cartoonist, some politician, newspaper itself, Danish society, situation, they are bit like inside joke, own self-humor. Its not ALL about Muhammad the Prophet.. backgound of it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jyllands-Posten_Muhammad_cartoons_controversy
and not just one guilty party, Danish imams added some photos that were NOT even printed in that Danish newspaper. Whole story is a much much wider....much more complicated than it can be served to whole World SIMPLY as oh those unbelievers wanted to insult Muhammad or Islam. Its NOT THAT SIMPLE... anyway thats now history...
Another Rumor BUSTED...Death of one the Danish Cartoonists SO NOT TRUE...this is what i got today in my mailbox
Can you believe i got this CHAINLETTER in my mailbox today, somehow this topic pops up every now and then????
...anyone with better arabic skills let me know what it says Shame on me, aiaiai, i have to learn arabic Fast
anyways the "pearl" of the day:
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------الرجل الذي رسم الكاريكاتير على الرسول مات محروق والدنمارك متكتمة الخبر ارجوك تنشر الخبر هدا لان في اخت من فلسطين شافت رؤية ان اللي هينشر الخبر هدا ربنا هيفرحة بعد اربع ساعات والله شخص اسمه محمد اقسم بالله انه راى الرسول في منامه وقال له بلغ الاسلام والمسلمين عني السلام فمن ينشرها خلال اربعة ايام فسوف يفرح فرحا شديدا ومن يتجاهلها فسوف يحزن حزنا شديدا ارسلها الي 15 شخص
____________________this is the danish cartoonist
if you are happy of his death just forward it pleeeeeeeeeeeeeez(u wont loose anything)
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Happy over somebody's death? NOT ME and I thought WTF and ran some search ON NET and drumrollls tadaaaaa.....it payed off, as my suspicions were confirmed... i found site accompanied by funny song Risky romance as parody of Lady Gaga's Bad Romance hehe
http://article.wn.com/view/2010/03/03/Blasphemous_Danish_Cartoonist_burnt_to_death/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_uFo8PzkvrE
anyway back to topic..this what site read....TITLED
Blasphemous Danish Cartoonist burnt to death? The Siasat Daily 2010-03-03
"The editor of the Danish newspaper 'Jyllands Posten' was burnt to death when a fire mysteriously broke out in his bedroom, a Saudi newspaper claims. According to the newspaper, the editor was sleeping in his bedroom when the fire ravaged his bedroom. He and his newspaper became controversial when it had published blasphemous... "
First they say CARTOONIST and then editor heh, which one then? AND Kurt Westergaard died in mysterious fire that i havent heard of whole March....SO NOT TRUE...or as he would probably say Hearsays about my death are overly exaggareted LOL
see:
http://www.siasat.com/english/news/blasphemous-danish-cartoonist-burnt-death
http://indianmuslims.in/so-the-danish-cartoonist-was-burnt-alive
Source of RUMOR: Saudi paper
MYSTERY SOLVED!
So here is exerpt from my reply to who sent me this
They should sum up my stance on whole thing:
3.Even if that story would have been real, to laugh or be happy at somebody's violent death is sign of heartlessness and bad taste and major drop of in respect in my eyes. Peoples' deaths are NOT FUN!
...though death is natural thing. you dont have to be overly sad becauze:
a) person lives on in your memories, or via DNA in children or
b) if one believes in afterlife, then death is just leaving body behind.
But its different to be happy and say "seee he got punished". it shows our bad side to be happy over somebody's death like that in my opinion.
4.You wouldnt have lost anything by not sending this on ;) too. But thanks making me wiser about another Rumor people so much want to believe...
5. There are 12 cartoonists, not 1, he didnt draw all of them, and several cartoons joke on various other people ie including cartoonist, some politician, newspaper itself, Danish society, situation, they are bit like inside joke, own self-humor. Its not ALL about Muhammad the Prophet.. backgound of it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jyllands-Posten_Muhammad_cartoons_controversy
and not just one guilty party, Danish imams added some photos that were NOT even printed in that Danish newspaper. Whole story is a much much wider....much more complicated than it can be served to whole World SIMPLY as oh those unbelievers wanted to insult Muhammad or Islam. Its NOT THAT SIMPLE... anyway thats now history...
märts 19, 2010
märts 17, 2010
Edih Edih
Khaled , the King of Rai :)
this song was big hit in 92, when i finished elementary school and my classmates dedicated this song to me at final party as i was dzigitt ie Georgian dancer hehe, one clown asked us to do that, dance georgian dance, so i improvised hehe, anyway, when classmates dedicated this to me, i wan...ted to vanish hahaha, was embarrassed,what was i thinking...i was much much shy!
but this has now changed. next time youll play this song ill dance :)
Khaled Rocks!
märts 15, 2010
Gorby the Democrat
Yup, agreeee, Gorby was and probably is communist, who didnt intend to dismantle soviet union but simply amend one. Thank god that he failed.....
Gorby the Democrat
Gorby the Democrat
märts 13, 2010
Malcolm Lincoln ja co kõlas hästi!
Siren in my head, is making awful sound.
It's time to make it clear-what is lost
and what is found?
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
I waisted years, I waisted time,
trying to reach the starts.
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
2X
Give me time and give me strenght,
give me strenght to carry on.
Give me bit of hope now, help me through the night.
Siren in my head, yes I can hear it again.
Is it just the beginning, or is it the end?
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
I waisted years, I waisted time,
trying to reach the starts.
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
4X
Give me time and give me strenght,
give me strenght to carry on.
Give me bit of hope now, help me through the night.
http://www.err.ee/eestilaul/video.aspx?id=31115
Siren of Malcolm Lincoln-the estonian pick for Eurovision. Elegic, enchanting, heard first time in finale. Sounds good
It's time to make it clear-what is lost
and what is found?
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
I waisted years, I waisted time,
trying to reach the starts.
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
2X
Give me time and give me strenght,
give me strenght to carry on.
Give me bit of hope now, help me through the night.
Siren in my head, yes I can hear it again.
Is it just the beginning, or is it the end?
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
I waisted years, I waisted time,
trying to reach the starts.
My life has been oh lame,
has been oh lame so far.
4X
Give me time and give me strenght,
give me strenght to carry on.
Give me bit of hope now, help me through the night.
http://www.err.ee/eestilaul/video.aspx?id=31115
Siren of Malcolm Lincoln-the estonian pick for Eurovision. Elegic, enchanting, heard first time in finale. Sounds good
Rapunzel Live-Eesti Laul Finaal 2010
Rapunzel
Talented and gorgeous Lenna's Live performance. She would have done well even with this song, and what a song this is.... But she was big minded enough to see goodness of Malcom Lincoln too! She has the class! Respect, the silver tongue and one the top fav singers in Estonia and world!
http://www.err.ee/eestilaul/video.aspx?id=31112
ja ma kuulan seda laulu veel ja veel....Lenna on super!
isegi kui laulu isiklik taust kriibib pisut...
Talented and gorgeous Lenna's Live performance. She would have done well even with this song, and what a song this is.... But she was big minded enough to see goodness of Malcom Lincoln too! She has the class! Respect, the silver tongue and one the top fav singers in Estonia and world!
http://www.err.ee/eestilaul/video.aspx?id=31112
ja ma kuulan seda laulu veel ja veel....Lenna on super!
isegi kui laulu isiklik taust kriibib pisut...
märts 12, 2010
märts 10, 2010
Golden Seed by Francis Dove
Music of new or old friend, i doubted, but turns out to be good and talented
http://www.myspace.com/francisdove
http://goldenseed.fotofrancis.lv
http://www.youtube.com/user/Francisdovenzer
Golden Seed
If you wait your time will come
Reach out your hands and feel as one
Give your faith the room and means to breath
It will give you back such a golden seed
Make your house a place of peace
Give of your love and truth will lead
Show your kindness openly on your face
Give your hand the will of grace
When you see the sun rise clear
You’ll feel the rush and hate will disappear
Love shining through sweet eyes so dear
You’ll know your path and please be sincere
If you wait your time will come
Reach out your hands and feel as one
Give your faith the room and means to breath
It will give you back such a golden seed
http://www.myspace.com/francisdove
http://goldenseed.fotofrancis.lv
http://www.youtube.com/user/Francisdovenzer
Golden Seed
If you wait your time will come
Reach out your hands and feel as one
Give your faith the room and means to breath
It will give you back such a golden seed
Make your house a place of peace
Give of your love and truth will lead
Show your kindness openly on your face
Give your hand the will of grace
When you see the sun rise clear
You’ll feel the rush and hate will disappear
Love shining through sweet eyes so dear
You’ll know your path and please be sincere
If you wait your time will come
Reach out your hands and feel as one
Give your faith the room and means to breath
It will give you back such a golden seed
märts 09, 2010
Drawing on Divine:Bahai perspectives
http://www.bahaiperspectives.com/inspiration/2010/03/06/drawing-on-the-divine/
We go through life hitching our wagons to stars that fall; whereupon we are miserable, and lasso the next ones. Our leaves shrivel, our moons wane, the marbles we build our statues of are crumbled. Only God is always strong, always there, always permanent. Only God is worthy to be worked for. And to achieve this detachment from everything except God we require prayer.
(Marzieh Gail, Dawn over Mount Hira)
We all struggle with our existence. To understand ourselves and to understand one another. Yet it seems that ‘finding ourselves’ is not something we can actually do on our own. Shoghi Effendi explains that the more we search for ourselves the less likely we are to find ourselves; ‘Abdu’l-Bahá explains that the master key to self-discovery is self-forgetfulness. But this task of forgetting ourselves is very difficult. Especially living immersed in a social reality that begs to differ all the time.
We are exposed to music, television, films, books and popular thought that insist on the promotion of self as the key to happiness, that tell us “self-help” is “within our reach!” And then provide us with easy a+b=c formulas in self-help books and manuals to achieve just that. But do they really work? Probably not, or else why would keep buying the manuals? We’re not satisfied yet......
Islam and diversity? Compatible?
In one sense yes they are compatible cauze one can say Muslims come from different backgounds, but then also NO, cauze there is drive to monoview establishment and not just among radicals but among so called moderates. They seek to establish World of Islam, just like any other value system
seeks to establish own view all over world. and often and not denying so by Force or making others comply, convert or even suffer for not becoming member of right crowd. following article comes from right-wing but they are right, Rise of Islam as major ruling philosophy would be not only death blow to considered heretics , minorites and rivals but it would be different state model from current Western idea of state. Separation of State and church is one. If there would be diversity it wont be in present values of western democracies, however imperfect west is. And so is Islamic World, imperfect.....only thing i like to Live in Europe as it is now, well at least in Estonia :) Let it stay so...
http://www.rightsidenews.com/201003088962/culture-wars/islam-is-incompatible-with-diversity.html
seeks to establish own view all over world. and often and not denying so by Force or making others comply, convert or even suffer for not becoming member of right crowd. following article comes from right-wing but they are right, Rise of Islam as major ruling philosophy would be not only death blow to considered heretics , minorites and rivals but it would be different state model from current Western idea of state. Separation of State and church is one. If there would be diversity it wont be in present values of western democracies, however imperfect west is. And so is Islamic World, imperfect.....only thing i like to Live in Europe as it is now, well at least in Estonia :) Let it stay so...
http://www.rightsidenews.com/201003088962/culture-wars/islam-is-incompatible-with-diversity.html
Mis tegelikult on kultuur-Raagi blogi postituse mõtted
Raag ütleb:
"Meie põhiseaduse preambulas on öeldud, et see riik on loodud eesti keele ja kultuuri kaitseks. Eesti kultuuri ei peeta samas aga vajalikuks defineerida. Nii seisab see lause seal sellise iseenesest-mõistetavusena, et mõjub peaaegu tautoloogiana.
Niisiis, mina, eestlane pean asjadest ise aru saama.
Hoolimata definitsioonide rohkusest mõistetakse akadeemiliselt kultuuri mingi kindla väärtuste koguna, mis määrab meie käitumist. Kultuur on viis, kuidas me lahendame oma probleeme ja suhestume maailmaga. Selline struktureeritud informatsioonikogum programmeerib võrdselt Kivirähki “Rehepapi” ja eesti maksusüsteemi; niisamuti telesaate “ Võta või jäta” ja kinnisvarabuumi. Kohati vôib selline definitsioon ka segadust tekitada, sest tavakeeles peetakse kultuuriks vaid erinevaid kunste. (teatrikunst, filmikunst, kujutav kunst jne) Ka nii vôib... ehkki teater, kirjuandus ja kujutav kunst on palju vanemad, kui see sôna 'kultuur" nendega seostamine, mis sündis tegelikult laiemalt alles 19. sajandil. Igal juhul jääb esimese asjana arusaamatuks, kas pôhiseadus peab silmas eesti kultuuri all silmas eesti kunste, vôi môtleb ta siiski kultuurile antropoloogilises vôtmes"
http://ilmarraag.blogspot.com/2010/03/milleks-kaitsta-eesti-kultuuri.html
märts 08, 2010
märts 07, 2010
Kriibib
Iga kord kui ma kuulen Rapunzel laulu , ja ma arvan ma hakkn kuulma seda söögi alla ja peale, raadiost, kriibib, otseselt.......Ja kõige iroonia on See Minu lemmiklaulja ka eesti naislauljatest, ei saa väga vihata ka...ja ei taha
MIDA MA VALESTI TEGIN???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Täna saab nädal.... ja uskumatu kuidas see mulle korda läheb... ei ykskõikne olla ei saa aga peale käia kah ei taha, ja mitte meeldida ka ei saa
MIDA MA VALESTI TEGIN???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Täna saab nädal.... ja uskumatu kuidas see mulle korda läheb... ei ykskõikne olla ei saa aga peale käia kah ei taha, ja mitte meeldida ka ei saa
märts 03, 2010
Britt's blog's latest :)-Cool Shoes
Cool Shoes
http://blog.500wordshorts.org/2010/02/09/mad-kathleen.aspx
How you can never please women enough :P story......
http://blog.500wordshorts.org/2010/02/09/mad-kathleen.aspx
How you can never please women enough :P story......
märts 02, 2010
Vanemöde
"laulab Sal Saller,keegi on lindistanud arvatavasti kodu makiga mingil kontserdil,kusagil maakultuurimajas,rariteetne asi.Lugu pakkus bändile Elva ansambli Ätid kitramees Aivar Moorits,kes oli selle kusagilt raadio jaamast lindistanud."
Inside the night-Welcome to my life
Im made for lonely riding
Choose to be me....
To Angeelika :)
Youre Angel not asking who im , youll understand
Welcome to my dreams
Afterschock
Road to hell is paved with good intentions...i meant no harm. but i feel bad that i made you uncomfortable. even if unwishingly :( But i couldnt do nothing about that i like you in wider sense not just appearance...maybe the way i served it was bit over or my reputation is tainted or just youre not into me and came tooo strong with my songs, some them purely coincendental, and contacting you, wanting to talk to you, to know about you, im simply socializing more and more with more people, becoming bolder, i didnt want to scare you. and then i was at times trying not too bee too pushy, giving a break, not making it so obvious, i though that i was considerate..but i guess noone can be fully that. Next time, if that will come that is, I will use handshakes and there will be pause.. loooong pause. See ya in April maybe...Fasting time in many sense...
sorry :( not for my liking you but that you felt the way you felt
and you took measures what you took. Maybe you never read my blog, but if you do, this is for ya
sorry :( not for my liking you but that you felt the way you felt
and you took measures what you took. Maybe you never read my blog, but if you do, this is for ya
märts 01, 2010
Moment of Truth
now I know...its time to give dream a break.. and i will do that in one sphere only until something will if ever change in Future, but i will try to mend other areas. i need still develop.
You learn
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn
What i really Want...
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker
And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
Yeah.
And what I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness, and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around, all around.
Why are you so petrified of silence?
Here, can you handle this?
Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die?
Or did you long for the next distraction?
And all I need now is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer.
And all I really want is some peace, man
A place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength.
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.
And all I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh...
some Byron for ya :)- She walks in beauty
1
She walks in Beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that’s best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow’d to that tender light
Which Heaven to gaudy day denies.
2
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair’d the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o’er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
3
And on that cheek, and o’er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!
She walks in Beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that’s best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow’d to that tender light
Which Heaven to gaudy day denies.
2
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair’d the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o’er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
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And on that cheek, and o’er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!
And what it all comes down to...
Morrisette's voice is lovely and jagged little pill too :)
And what it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five.
...................................................
What it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other is giving the peace sign.
...................................................
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby
I'm sad but I'm laughin'
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby.
What it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other is playing the piano.
What it all comes down to, my friends
Is that everything is just fine, fine, fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab.
We love you just the way you are
if youre perfect...
Dont do this your kidz...eva!
remembered this song while looking for Hand in the pocket..
Dont do this your kidz...eva!
remembered this song while looking for Hand in the pocket..
veebruar 28, 2010
Detail of the Dream
That Girl of dream i met in my dream, the event had location: where Kaarli Puiestee meets Harju tänav near Freedom Square :) i jsut hadnt written about it
Maybe its nothing, maybe its longing but maybe its my destiny :)
I so would want that be my destiny :) but we shall see. maybe its not meant to be...
and i am chicken sometimes
Maybe its nothing, maybe its longing but maybe its my destiny :)
I so would want that be my destiny :) but we shall see. maybe its not meant to be...
and i am chicken sometimes
If something lethal would happen to me and i no longer walk in this planet
KNOW, i love you my friends, family and beloved :)
I saw somone copied my Crooked Judges Post.................
then i have new location-Pakistan, i wonder its either because of that, maybe,
or because someone typed some search words or it had to do something of Finding Bibi link. in any case i dont know who did that, and what their intentions are :)
We live in crazy world :) But i cant be what im not :) I gotta speak my mind, even if someone might not like it :) and no im not gonna look over shoulder or live my life in fear. Take away my mortal coil, if you want, but something of me will remain in this blog,in my poetry, words written, spoken or in the hearts of family, friends, and beloved :) No one can crush spirit that doesnt want to be crushed, especially of fiery dragon or reborn phoenix and no one will ever stop sharp vulcan-mercurian virgo mind to think :) until that is functioning :) and even if im dead my spirit remains! 4 eva :)
I saw somone copied my Crooked Judges Post.................
then i have new location-Pakistan, i wonder its either because of that, maybe,
or because someone typed some search words or it had to do something of Finding Bibi link. in any case i dont know who did that, and what their intentions are :)
We live in crazy world :) But i cant be what im not :) I gotta speak my mind, even if someone might not like it :) and no im not gonna look over shoulder or live my life in fear. Take away my mortal coil, if you want, but something of me will remain in this blog,in my poetry, words written, spoken or in the hearts of family, friends, and beloved :) No one can crush spirit that doesnt want to be crushed, especially of fiery dragon or reborn phoenix and no one will ever stop sharp vulcan-mercurian virgo mind to think :) until that is functioning :) and even if im dead my spirit remains! 4 eva :)
veebruar 24, 2010
Lumi on muinasjutt hei hei
Head Vabariigi Aaaaaaastapäeva :) Eesti! Minu päeva algas lumerookimisega, peale lipuheiskamise tseremooniat Telkust vaadates. Katuselt, majaümbusesest, teed ja kuuri pealt. Lund on niiiiiiii palju, et see kevad tuleb palju vett, muidugi kui päike on töös kuivab ära ka :) Aga vesi,vesi, vesi, st jäätunud vesi oootab oma aega et vabaneda talve kammitsaist :) Ja seeee tuleb suuur vabanemine :) Oootan kevadet, mis on juba sees :) Südames :) Aga Hea on olla asjalik, sai aju kohe funkama , ei jäänud lösutama ja paraaadi nägi ka ära :) Laaaneotsa kõned on nagu ali head, sellised kahejalaga maas olevad ja inklusiiivsed. Ma mäletan, kui ta Narvas rääkis, ja oli inklusiiivne st mitteüleolev vaid rõhutas et ka venelased on olnud osa eesti riigi ajaloost st ka olnud Eesti kaitsjad, üksikisikutena st, Kodanikena jne. Vene riik ja Kommu riik on muidugi veits teine ooper, kuigi eks mõlemad nii riik kui kodanikud mõjutavad yks teist asga see on pikem jutt. Ohtusid tuleb muidugi silmas pidada ja teha suht nii et poleks võimalik nii keerulist olukorda veel hullemaks teha. Muidugi valmis tuleb olla igasugusteks oootamatusteks ka :)
Täna on ilus ilm ja Päikes sillerdab aknasse, ema rääkis et oli näinud esimest kärbest-kevad sla hiilib ligi :)
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Mul on hea tuju :) Ja ärge muretsege ma saan oma asjad tehtud, kui mitte korda :) Samm-sammmult! Kevad on südames. May the Force Supreme be with You :) Dear Friends
Spring is coming :) day by day! :)
Täna on ilus ilm ja Päikes sillerdab aknasse, ema rääkis et oli näinud esimest kärbest-kevad sla hiilib ligi :)
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Mul on hea tuju :) Ja ärge muretsege ma saan oma asjad tehtud, kui mitte korda :) Samm-sammmult! Kevad on südames. May the Force Supreme be with You :) Dear Friends
Spring is coming :) day by day! :)
veebruar 23, 2010
Eurolaulud-eesti laulud
Anne
Good voice, melodious, would work On Euro, but its not on final, maybe too ballaadlike, and there might be many like that
Anne is talent though :)
Mimicry
Unique voice and musics style, looking foward how they do :)
Marten Kuningas ja Mahavok
Mõnus, cool, rocky, talented Marten, my favourites, good arrangements :)
Wait for me more ;)
Lenna ja Rapunzel
From the hands of Vaiko Eplik it seems, song sound is it bit to mixed for me, though acoustics are diverse, Lenna's voice is good, ive always liked her singing, song is about Rapunzel waiting her Prince, so its about idyllic love. Im not sure id send this song... to Oslo, as much as i like Lenna's works. But perhaps it s worthy to try
Update: More i listen, more i like it hehe, contagious hehe
Good voice, melodious, would work On Euro, but its not on final, maybe too ballaadlike, and there might be many like that
Anne is talent though :)
Mimicry
Unique voice and musics style, looking foward how they do :)
Marten Kuningas ja Mahavok
Mõnus, cool, rocky, talented Marten, my favourites, good arrangements :)
Wait for me more ;)
Lenna ja Rapunzel
From the hands of Vaiko Eplik it seems, song sound is it bit to mixed for me, though acoustics are diverse, Lenna's voice is good, ive always liked her singing, song is about Rapunzel waiting her Prince, so its about idyllic love. Im not sure id send this song... to Oslo, as much as i like Lenna's works. But perhaps it s worthy to try
Update: More i listen, more i like it hehe, contagious hehe
Vabariigi kuulutamise aasta päeva puhul!
Head vabariigi väljakuulutamise päeva ka
Fotomeenutus aastast 20008, Wyattiga :) Endla rõdu monument
veebruar 19, 2010
Crooked judges of Amsterdam
IMO Islam like meny petrified systems has reached nowadays as whole entity and (not perhaps some good parts of it or sincere people who believe in goodness of it), bancruptcy. its like Body of zombie, living but not really on own will. Wilders and Pat Condells word might sound heartless, but sorry, i think there is truth in them.
Study Van Gogh murder case with Heart and mind, and ask yourself, with heart and mind, would you have killed Theo van Gogh, just because he didnt like your set beliefs or help direct movie of ex-Muslim Somali backgound woman Dutch MoP Hirsi who draw attention to the serious family violence issue and situation of women in Islamic families( ok not all of them, but problem is there)? would you have killed him just because he is spicy in mouth and chooses not to have religion as his cup of tea? Would you kill your own brother just because he had soometimes said bad things unto you or doesnt agree with you fully? You get the point, and Im sorry, but Theo van Gogh was a mirror, you might think he was crooked one, and not very tactful always, but he was Mirror and what you saw was Reflection. Islam clearly has problem, radicals do what they want and rest cant, wont or dont do much about it. Yeah West has wronged Islamic world, but not all the time, go thru alll history and ask yourself is everything that Muslims or people who call themseve so, really done in "revenge Mode"? as far as i know it takes two to Tango ;) I think noo one is really guiltless or spotless, when it comes to any fight that has occured in history, all who get involved no matter how shiny armour was in beginning will eventually be muddy or bloody...Peace
Hate is waste of space and space of waste:)
Angeeeeelu
Vaata ja näed raskemgi tee
kergem sul näib, kui tagasi toob see
vaata ja näed muutub veel kõik
saabub kord päev, jääda nii võib
:)
Taaskohtumiseni kulla :)
King's State of Mind
Today's fortune: Choose to experience peace rather than conflict[8)]
Used to sit and worry about the future
Worrying about the future don't change the past
Used to think that tomorrow would be better
But now I know that I'm doing the best I can
I'm just a man... trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb, cause it's all a state of mind
Wake up in the morning and I turn the pages
Don't understand what's going down
Everybody's acting so outrageous
It's gonna take a lot of love to turn things around
I'm just a man trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb cause it's all a state of mind
Hear people talk about going to heaven
Grab a little bit of heaven right here on earth
Troubled times lead to healing times
I was sad now I'm feeling fine
It's the taking and the giving that makes this life worth living,
Makes this life worth living
I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and fly,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
Ride the winds and climb,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
Used to sit and worry about the future
Worrying about the future don't change the past
Used to think that tomorrow would be better
But now I know that I'm doing the best I can
I'm just a man... trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb, cause it's all a state of mind
Wake up in the morning and I turn the pages
Don't understand what's going down
Everybody's acting so outrageous
It's gonna take a lot of love to turn things around
I'm just a man trying to find the reasons why I stand
Took some time to realize that I am what I am
And I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and climb cause it's all a state of mind
Hear people talk about going to heaven
Grab a little bit of heaven right here on earth
Troubled times lead to healing times
I was sad now I'm feeling fine
It's the taking and the giving that makes this life worth living,
Makes this life worth living
I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and fly,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
Ride the winds and climb,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
veebruar 18, 2010
what to tell our daughters-thought?
Lugege seda:
http://www.newsrealblog.com/2010/02/16/what-to-tell-our-daughters/What my daughter needs to know is that the emotional disaster that follows the severing of a sexual and spiritual union is a very big deal — and I do not want her to experience it. I want her to know that a happy marriage is absolutely attainable, that all it really takes – aside from making a good choice of partner (...which is no small thing) — is the right attitude.Which means, my dear, when you do marry, assume it will be for life. Though divorce is lawful (as it must be), pretend it is not. Second, do not marry someone just because you love them. It is not enough. There’s much more to a marriage than feeling starry-eyed about a person. Trust me: You will not feel starry-eyed forever. As a man once said who had been married to his wife for 50 years,“It’s funny: all that falling in love business. I hear myself tell the story and it all sounds so superficial. And it is, when you compare it to what we ended up with.” And last but not least, do not put yourself at the center of your life..."
http://www.newsrealblog.com/2010/02/16/what-to-tell-our-daughters/What my daughter needs to know is that the emotional disaster that follows the severing of a sexual and spiritual union is a very big deal — and I do not want her to experience it. I want her to know that a happy marriage is absolutely attainable, that all it really takes – aside from making a good choice of partner (...which is no small thing) — is the right attitude.Which means, my dear, when you do marry, assume it will be for life. Though divorce is lawful (as it must be), pretend it is not. Second, do not marry someone just because you love them. It is not enough. There’s much more to a marriage than feeling starry-eyed about a person. Trust me: You will not feel starry-eyed forever. As a man once said who had been married to his wife for 50 years,“It’s funny: all that falling in love business. I hear myself tell the story and it all sounds so superficial. And it is, when you compare it to what we ended up with.” And last but not least, do not put yourself at the center of your life..."
Sunshine and learning
does that means to you that what i guess? or is it just a song from the film you like?
Varane õis·ja Anna Haava luule ja olukorrast kuningriigis
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem,
ehid ennast vara ju?
Külm su võidab, õnnetu!
"Olen unes imet näin'd,
iluilmas ise käin'd..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem!
"Ei või enam leinata, õnnetundmust varjata..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem! ...(Anna Haava)
Kas ma unistan liiiga palju? Kas ma mõistatatan, et kas mõne su lauluvaliku, blogi jupi tga võib olla kodeeritud sõnum, signaaal et....kas ma olen ennast juba piisavalt reetnud, küsimused, millele vastusseid ma mõistatatan aga kui kohtun on totaalselt meelest või ei jõua küsida.
Kas mu unenägu http://khalblogstan.blogspot.com/2009/10/wierd-dreams.html
"I started to interperet own earlier dream, using bit astrology hehe. im suspecting that russian estonian speaking girl who hugged me on street and had hypnotic eyes could be Scorpio, at least thats one book claims that scorpio women has hypnotic looks. but maybe its just a dream hehe. some things in astrology abt people seem to be true. anyways there is one scorpio in horizon, but its too early to say that anything will happen..." jääb unenäoks, kuigi too oli hea tundeline, või ma tõlgendan seda oma soovide kohaselt?Kui sa seda juhtud lugema, siis tea et ei möödu päevagi kui ma su peale ei mõtleks, aga ma ei tea kas see oon meant to be? Minu sümpaatia ja enam paistab olema ikka päris :) ja ma ei tunne ennast halvasti, pgem on asi positiivse laenguga :)
Veel Anna Haava luulet:
Meid saatnud on vaikusehelin
ja tähtesäravad ööd,
kuukumased lumised metsad
ja vaiksed kaugeleteed:
me oleme põhjamaa lapsed,
kaks-me mõlemad.
Jääb lumekargelt põue meil südame sügavam õnn-
ja südame sügavam valu, nad ainult aimata on.../Anna Haava
Anna Haava luule langeb täitsa õigesse mulda eriti see:
Ei saa mitte vaiki olla...natuke julge küll..
ehid ennast vara ju?
Külm su võidab, õnnetu!
"Olen unes imet näin'd,
iluilmas ise käin'd..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem!
"Ei või enam leinata, õnnetundmust varjata..."
Õiekene ilusam, kaunikene kullasem! ...(Anna Haava)
Kas ma unistan liiiga palju? Kas ma mõistatatan, et kas mõne su lauluvaliku, blogi jupi tga võib olla kodeeritud sõnum, signaaal et....kas ma olen ennast juba piisavalt reetnud, küsimused, millele vastusseid ma mõistatatan aga kui kohtun on totaalselt meelest või ei jõua küsida.
Kas mu unenägu http://khalblogstan.blogspot.com/2009/10/wierd-dreams.html
"I started to interperet own earlier dream, using bit astrology hehe. im suspecting that russian estonian speaking girl who hugged me on street and had hypnotic eyes could be Scorpio, at least thats one book claims that scorpio women has hypnotic looks. but maybe its just a dream hehe. some things in astrology abt people seem to be true. anyways there is one scorpio in horizon, but its too early to say that anything will happen..." jääb unenäoks, kuigi too oli hea tundeline, või ma tõlgendan seda oma soovide kohaselt?Kui sa seda juhtud lugema, siis tea et ei möödu päevagi kui ma su peale ei mõtleks, aga ma ei tea kas see oon meant to be? Minu sümpaatia ja enam paistab olema ikka päris :) ja ma ei tunne ennast halvasti, pgem on asi positiivse laenguga :)
Veel Anna Haava luulet:
Meid saatnud on vaikusehelin
ja tähtesäravad ööd,
kuukumased lumised metsad
ja vaiksed kaugeleteed:
me oleme põhjamaa lapsed,
kaks-me mõlemad.
Jääb lumekargelt põue meil südame sügavam õnn-
ja südame sügavam valu, nad ainult aimata on.../Anna Haava
Anna Haava luule langeb täitsa õigesse mulda eriti see:
Ei saa mitte vaiki olla...natuke julge küll..
veebruar 04, 2010
Angeeeelikaaaa
i had early rise, and im about to go sleep
but I m happy, tired so much
visted several docs cauze of Angeelika and Kadri, yep their visting
Lots of snow, and roads in Pärnu
that ARE SO iMPOSSIBLE, THAT YOU NEED PUSH baby cart through,
its like so krossikas.
more some other timee
zleeeep Khaled zleeeep :)
but I m happy, tired so much
visted several docs cauze of Angeelika and Kadri, yep their visting
Lots of snow, and roads in Pärnu
that ARE SO iMPOSSIBLE, THAT YOU NEED PUSH baby cart through,
its like so krossikas.
more some other timee
zleeeep Khaled zleeeep :)
veebruar 03, 2010
Chidrens names
I just learned today, that my bosses new child who was born recently name is Katariina Anna Maria :D, and his son's name is Karl Gustav Artur :)
Also my Chinese friend has daugter of my Angeelika's age, and her name is Aimei :)
all bit unusual names :)
Also my Chinese friend has daugter of my Angeelika's age, and her name is Aimei :)
all bit unusual names :)
Looks like my stats has gone up
4 hits today an one copy of not my poem
Places from Santiago Chile, Ottawa, Canada, Karachi Pakistan. i wonder who?
Strasbourg France, Nacka Sweden and 4 estonian towns are now mapped, Pärnu thats probaly me, Tamsalu, Viljandi( Ivar?) and 4 times from Tallinn, so i get some traffic huh neat.
Yesterday i went to bed and ignored tv and computer :)
i neeeded rest other wise i would have been a zombie at work
still i need to change some stuff in myself for the better and for myself as it may affect other people. I feel happy actually, at peace,i focus on appreciating thing inside of me. We'll find out what will become of :)
Im hopeful yet gotta remind myself that its easy to misinerpret sometimes. Could you be the...? ...ne Mozhet ne odin , ńe odin korol :)
come what may
Path to Eternal?
Places from Santiago Chile, Ottawa, Canada, Karachi Pakistan. i wonder who?
Strasbourg France, Nacka Sweden and 4 estonian towns are now mapped, Pärnu thats probaly me, Tamsalu, Viljandi( Ivar?) and 4 times from Tallinn, so i get some traffic huh neat.
Yesterday i went to bed and ignored tv and computer :)
i neeeded rest other wise i would have been a zombie at work
still i need to change some stuff in myself for the better and for myself as it may affect other people. I feel happy actually, at peace,i focus on appreciating thing inside of me. We'll find out what will become of :)
Im hopeful yet gotta remind myself that its easy to misinerpret sometimes. Could you be the...? ...ne Mozhet ne odin , ńe odin korol :)
come what may
Path to Eternal?
veebruar 01, 2010
Insanity
Definition of Insanity is doing one thing over and over again and expecting different result hehe and If this doesnt why dont you try something different :)
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
On the Gay Cure theme
Definition of Insanity is doing one thing over and over again and expecting different result hehe and If this doesnt why dont you try something different :)
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
im grinning on that, though issue is dead serious,involves peoples lives!
Rise and Shine :D :P ;)
Hommikust kõik see kes juhtub seda lugema,
noh loota juu võib..:)
Mul õnnestus taas unest und näha, minu kavatsus magama minna jäi kavatsuseks
ja kell saamas vaikselt kuus ja mul on vaja täna olla asjalik ;)
st Teen oma töö ära, lugematute hulkade pausidega, et puhata ;) st leian koha kus lühiajalselt tukkuda.
Ja mul õnnestus need 3 päeva peaaegu mitte midagi teha. produktiivselt mitte midagi
Reede ja Laupäeva istusin ma totaalselt kodus, "tegelesin" arvuti ja Feisbookiga. i aint vetsus ja söömas käidud ja telekat vaadatud
positiivne on see, et sai sugulastega räägitud, Liibanonist ja vennaga ka. Ja Gordoniga, lisasin posu tuttavaid endale msni. One Armed Bobiga ka :) nagu täna peale keskööd, sain lõpuks osa endast selgitatud, mille üle on mul hea meel ei jää kripeldama hinge peale, et ei jälle ei leidnud võimalust või julgust omi mõtteid avaldada. :) Laupäeva õhtu vastu pühapäeva ma siiski magasin, ja laupäeavl ma msnis polnud.
Ma sain uusi asju teada ka nt Reet on metalit kuulanud põhimusana ja Ma avastasin Tänu Harrile KAKS uut BÄNDI, Denun- Tshiili METALbänd mille lauljaks on naine ja ma kuulasin seda mitu korda järjest. Kui ma Harrile seda ütlesin, siis ta ütles et mulle meeldib siis ka Nightwish, ja tõesti kui ma kuulasin neid, siis jaa :)
Ok, ja siis tegin video kuidas linnud kibuvitsapõõsas söömas käivad
ja Kuidas Rott seemne ja pekiraksus käis :D Uskumatu aga ta ronis linnutoidumajani
Terve õhtu treisin seda :)
Nautige
noh loota juu võib..:)
Mul õnnestus taas unest und näha, minu kavatsus magama minna jäi kavatsuseks
ja kell saamas vaikselt kuus ja mul on vaja täna olla asjalik ;)
st Teen oma töö ära, lugematute hulkade pausidega, et puhata ;) st leian koha kus lühiajalselt tukkuda.
Ja mul õnnestus need 3 päeva peaaegu mitte midagi teha. produktiivselt mitte midagi
Reede ja Laupäeva istusin ma totaalselt kodus, "tegelesin" arvuti ja Feisbookiga. i aint vetsus ja söömas käidud ja telekat vaadatud
positiivne on see, et sai sugulastega räägitud, Liibanonist ja vennaga ka. Ja Gordoniga, lisasin posu tuttavaid endale msni. One Armed Bobiga ka :) nagu täna peale keskööd, sain lõpuks osa endast selgitatud, mille üle on mul hea meel ei jää kripeldama hinge peale, et ei jälle ei leidnud võimalust või julgust omi mõtteid avaldada. :) Laupäeva õhtu vastu pühapäeva ma siiski magasin, ja laupäeavl ma msnis polnud.
Ma sain uusi asju teada ka nt Reet on metalit kuulanud põhimusana ja Ma avastasin Tänu Harrile KAKS uut BÄNDI, Denun- Tshiili METALbänd mille lauljaks on naine ja ma kuulasin seda mitu korda järjest. Kui ma Harrile seda ütlesin, siis ta ütles et mulle meeldib siis ka Nightwish, ja tõesti kui ma kuulasin neid, siis jaa :)
Ok, ja siis tegin video kuidas linnud kibuvitsapõõsas söömas käivad
ja Kuidas Rott seemne ja pekiraksus käis :D Uskumatu aga ta ronis linnutoidumajani
Terve õhtu treisin seda :)
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